My name is Meshell and I have decided to create this blog to contain my thoughts and communications to my “disconnected” son, Jeremy Andrew Powers.
I know that sounds strange, and it is really.
See, about 23 years ago I got involved with the Church of Scientology. For most of those 23 years it was my life and sole direction – as they call it – “to get up the Bridge”. But in early 2010 I discovered things about the church that I had previously not known or realized. After a very thorough research I came to the conclusion that the “hidden” side of the church was indeed bad. I found an alarming amount of facts that clearly illuminated the fact that the current corporate entity known as the “Church of Scientology” is corrupt from the top and is no longer “pure”.
It was crystal clear that the CoS had severly strayed from the core of what the founder set in motion, there was no doubt. This organization, in the name of help and with the misapplication of the tech and policy, is ripping lives apart. I would be an accessory to this travisty to continue to support it any longer. The only thing to do was to withdraw my support.
I honestly believe that any current, sane church member, doing the same exact research that I did would have the same final conclusions. In fact, thousands of others have come to this conclusion in the last 6-10 years. Many are or should I say, “were” very upstanding members and highest contributors, who decided they could no longer support such a corrupt organization, one that is hiding behind a veil of doing good.
But most just turn the other cheek and don’t look, or keep their opinions secret because they too would have their lives ripped apart if they spoke up or told the church they were withdrawing their support. How you ask? All their friends & family being coached to disconnect from them, lest they not be allowed inside!
The whole story of how this all came about, what I found and ultimately what I did about it is written up at http://littledoubt.wordpress.com/ . If you want to know the full and true side of that story, go there to read it. You will find that the church published false data about me to the others to ensure that I looked bad. You will see it was written in a distorted way to seem like I did things that I actually did not do, but you’d assume I did. This was all used so that I could be labeled as a “suppressive person” and shunned.
You will find out that my decision to leave was not sudden (as in a “sudden departure” as LRH describes “blowing”). You will clearly see I did not “blow”, but made a very deliberate and difficult decision and carried through, keeping my personal integrity high.
I paid a hefty price for applying personal integrity. I lost my son.
Well, the church let him know that if he did not DISCONNECT from all communication with me he could not associate with anyone in good standing with the church nor could he go into the church and have any services – it would appear he felt he was left with no choice but to sever all ties to me. To make the decision even harder, he was pressured by his girlfriend, Sarah Coziahr, and she let him know that they couldn’t have a relationship unless he did this. Funny, Sarah’s own mom is an EX Scientologist and she isn’t disconnected from her.
So, dispite the fact that my relationship with Jeremy had always been VERY close – he closed the door on my existence on Oct 24th, 2010. I have not heard a single hello since then.
Christmas came and went, nothing. My birthday came and went, nothing. Mother’s Day came and went, nothing. The pain I feel is real. The resentment toward the church is more than you can imagine……I am using this blog to communicate my thoughts and feelings…….