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We Were In a Tornado!

SnapShotToday was a scary day!  Well, I guess technically yesterday was, but I’m still awake and now it’s after midnight.

Your nanny and I were caught in a small tornado while driving home from Theis Farm this afternoon!  See, just as we were leaving to head home the radio broadcasted a tornado warning for St. Charles county and was telling how it was close to where we live, and headed toward where we were.

Here we were out in the bottoms with nothing but farm fields all around us and I was thinking that it was not safe out in the open like that (lol, probably would have been safer though).  I called Jim and he advised that we should probably not come home yet and said the wind was furious at the house, but in all my wisdom I decided we should at least get on Page extension and head west toward home and get under an overpass for protection.

The drive was good for quite a ways, and I stayed on the phone with Jim (hands free, of course) as we headed west.  He said he was taking cover in the basement because of the tornado warning and said the wind was horrible.  I said “wow, there’s zero wind here, absolutely none!”  Jim mentioned to me that it was not a good sign that there was no wind and I knew he was right but it just seemed like maybe the tornado had gone the other direction so I keep heading onward.

Your nanny and I seemed to think the worst of the storm was quite a ways to our left because it looked horribly black that direction and just seemed like heavy rain ahead of us so we were not overly concerned.  Then the rains from hell started hitting us and I couldn’t see 10 feet in front of us!  The rain had just eased up, like almost quit, just as we got on the overpass at Jungermann.  That’s when I looked about 3 car lengths straight ahead of us and said to nanny, “oh my god mom, those clouds are coming all the way down to the road up there!” and no sooner had I said it and we were smack dab in the middle of a tornado!!  We saw debris swirling in the air and heard the high pitch sound of the wind and the vehicle started feeling like we were on some ice.

I was freaking out and not sure what I should do.  Jim was on the phone with me yelling to me to go south of 94….and I was yelling back to him, “Jim, we are IN THE TORNADO NOW” and he just kept telling me to get off of 94 and get south of it.  Of course, there was no exit anywhere close!

We felt stuff hitting the car and it was so loud around us – but not like a train, more like high pitched wind.  Since we were up high on a tall overpass, I didn’t know where to go for safety.  I thought of pulling over next to the concrete wall of the bridge and stopping, but then I immediately worried that it might just lift us up and flip us over to the road below!  Course, if it were going to do that it would have already done it because it was on us fast and furious and then it was gone.  I’d say it was gone in about 30 seconds and we could tell we were on the other side of it.  All the other cars around me seemed to be feeling the same freak out that I had, with not being sure what to do.

 

After we got through the storm we took this picture of the area we came through.

After we got through the storm we took this picture of the area we came through.

When we got a little further down the road the sky was blue!!!!  It was super weird.

We managed to get home, even though I was shaking harder than I had ever trembled before.  Jim thought that we had not actually been in the tornado, but that it was only the start of one, but the TV started giving reports of tornado damage and there were more warnings being issued as that tornado kept heading northeast.

After about 30 minutes nanny and I headed out again, this time to go see if there had been any damage in the area where the tornado came down on us and when we saw what it did after it went through us, we started shaking all over again!  It had went over to the shopping center where the 24 Hour Fitness Center was and tore the crap out of the front of the building!

24 Hour Fitness at Jungerman - just off the highway from where we were.

24 Hour Fitness at Jungermann – just off the highway from where we were.

We went ahead and got out to take pictures feeling freaked completely out that nothing bad had happened to us.  There were a lot of news stations there reporting and I was interviewed by Fox2Now and told them the story of what happened, then a lady from the Post Dispatch interviewed us.  I was shaking again, almost as bad as when we drove through it, because we could see how lucky we really were.

Here is a video we took when we drove back to the area.

You know Jeremy, it’s things like this that make this disconnection thing even more evil.  We are your family and families need each other when things are bad.  What if it would have been a bad deal and we had been hurt or even worse?  Do you think about this?  What do you think?  I suppose you’d not know for a long time, if ever – even if I died!  Even if you read this blog, you’d just think I was not posting much lately, like usual.

Do you ever consider how you’d feel if you later found out that I had been dead for 3 years or something?  You know that there would probably not be anyone who would try to inform you, because truthfully I’m the only one who tries to maintain this line of communication.  Jim thinks you don’t deserve the amount of love I have for you because of what you’ve done to me, so he sure wouldn’t try to get word to you, and Travis & Heather feel nearly the same.  They can’t tolerate the pain that I’m going through and feel the blame lies equally with you as with Scientology.

Jeremy, I tell them that it all boils down to Scientology’s forced disconnection policy because if it weren’t for that you would never have done this.  I try to get them to see that you are surrounded by people who tell you that your family are very bad people because we speak against the Church of Scientology – and you have to be believing them!

For the life of me, I do not understand how you could not just see through this hideous labeling of people who disagree.  You know how much your family loves you and surely you’re smart enough to know that we didn’t just turn “evil” overnight.  What we actually did, and all that we did, was disagree with the church and now they want us silenced and that is all it boils down to, meaning they didn’t want us to spread our opinions and doubt to you or others who are still practicing Scientology.

It’s been 3 years, 7 months, 14 days, 7 hours and 4 minutes since you last spoke to me.  Doesn’t it amaze you that I have not changed my mind and “came to my senses” (as they call it)?  Weren’t you taught that if you didn’t disconnect I would never be saved but that by disconnecting you would “save” me?  Do you believe that?

I know it turned out fine this time and nanny and I are safe – but there might come a day that it isn’t this happy ending and you’ll regret disconnecting from your loving blood family, more than ever and it will be too late.

 

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Here is a link to the short video I took when Nanny and I went back.  (If you’re viewing this post on your phone, the video doesn’t seem to show up, so use this link).   Click here to go to YouTube.

 

 

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Jeremy, I love you, miss you and I want you in our life.  I have nothing against you being in Scientology, but as long as you are forced to stay disconnected from me and your family – I will continue to speak out.  Likewise, if Scientology stops abusing the “disconnection policy” I will never breathe another word regarding Scientology, one way or another.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.  Just use my encrypted Hushmail email address if you are worried.

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Disconnection Has Been Discontinued in CoS – Breaking News!

Breaking-News-from-Interviews-2013Jeremy, I thought you should know that just this month, Church Officials told the New York Daily News (online, here) that they DO NOT push or force (by any means) DISCONNECTION.  In fact, they state on their own website that the Church does not interfere in the private affairs of families and actually encourage members to have “excellent” family relationships, whether Scientologist or not!  This was the official statement given in response to OTVIII, Sara Goldberg’s story, told in full here.

Church officials told the Daily News that disconnection is a voluntary practice, and on their website the church says they encourage members to have “excellent” family relationships, whether Scientologist or not.”Any inferences that the Church interfered in the private affairs of this family or any other are categorically untrue,” said Karin Pouw, spokesperson from the Church. “The Church of Scientology declines to debate the meaning or application of the voluntary practices of the religion, with the emphasis on voluntary.”Read more: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/woman-claims-scientology-made-pick-son-daughter-article-1.1722890#ixzz2w8uJYg84

Read for yourself what the OFFICIAL STATEMENT is
regarding DISCONNECTION on
www.scientology.org 
Then let’s dissect this.

FIRST POINT:

WHAT IS DISCONNECTION?
The website states: “A Scientologist can have trouble making spiritual progress in his auditing or training if he is connected to someone who is suppressive or who is antagonistic to Scientology or its tenets. All spiritual advancement gained from Scientology may well be lost because one is continually invalidated by an antagonistic person who wants nothing more than to do harm to the person. In order to resolve this situation, one either “handles” the other person’s antagonism with true data about Scientology and the Church or, as a last resort, when all attempts to handle have failed, one “disconnects” from or stops communicating with the person.

Ok, so – Jeremy this says that you will have trouble making spiritual progress in your training or auditing if I am suppressive or antagonistic to Scientology or its tenents —- because, QUOTE  “all spiritual advancement gained from Scientology may well be lost because one is continually invalidated by an antagonistic person who wants nothing more than to do harm to the person”.

Well, I actually agree with the above statement. 

In fact, if I were doing Scientology and I was associating with someone who was making degrading remarks about Scientology around me or to me, and/or invalidating me because of my participation – and after attempts to let them know that I would not continue to associate with them if they didn’t stop such actions towards me, then I would absolutely stop associating with them completely!  Jesus, this is common sense!  I would stop associating with anyone who did this stuff to me regarding any subject.

However, before you disconnected from me, you never once experienced anything remotely close to this from me, your sister, your nanny or Jim.  Not once.  In fact, we let you know that we were fine if you wanted to stay connected and do Scientology.  We let you know that we would just not discuss that subject around you at all.  We told you we’d keep it “good roads, good weather”.  Or don’t you remember?  I remember because I knew it was the only way I would be able to retain my relationship with you!

Continuing here – it says that in order to resolve this situation, one either “handles” the other person’s antagonism with true data about Scientology and the Church or, as a last resort, when all attempts to handle have failed, one “disconnects” from or stops communicating with the person.

Let’s see…..before you completely disconnected with me (and your whole family) not only did I never invalidate you regarding Scientology nor did I talk antagonistic about it, (except for the one day that I sat down with you to let you what we had discovered so that you could understand why we were resigning) – I encouraged you to follow your own path to truth and let you know I would not be antagonistic to you about it.  If you recall, I mentioned that I had an advantage of having been involved for 20+ years and saw things from a different perspective, and you had the right to have your own experience. I hope so much that you remember this.

You never once “attempted to handle my antagonism toward you” or “as a last resort” let me know you would no longer associate with me, because firstly I was not antagonistic toward you or your involvement in Scientology but secondly, you didn’t have that opportunity. You were told that if you didn’t stop all communication and any association with me that you would be THROWN OUT OF THE CHURCH and your own girlfriend, Sarah Coziahr-Powers (now your wife) said she would have to stop associating with you too.  

My very dearest and best friend since grade school had to disconnect from me as well, NOT because I was antagonistic about Scientology toward her but because if she didn’t, her only child (who is on staff at Flag) would be forced to disconnect from her!!  Hideousness.

Talk about misunderstanding your own policies.

SECOND POINT:

The website states:  “As defined by L. Ron Hubbard:

“The term handle most commonly means to smooth out a situation with another person by applying the technology of communication.

“The term disconnection is defined as a self-determined decision made by an individual that he is not going to be connected to another. It is a severing of a communication line.

“The basic principle of ‘handle or disconnect’ exists in any group and ours is no different.

“It is much like trying to deal with a criminal. If he will not handle, the society resorts to the only other solution: It ‘disconnects’ the criminal from the society. In other words, they remove the guy from society and put him in a prison because he won’t handle his problem or otherwise cease to commit criminal acts against others.”

Jeremy, you were never given the information that if your family was not antagonistic toward you with regards to your involvement in Scientology, then you had no reason to disconnect.

In fact, nobody is ever told this.

THIRD POINT:

The website states: “A person who disconnects is simply exercising their right to communicate or not to communicate with a particular person. This is one of the most fundamental rights of Man. For as Mr. Hubbard pointed out:   “If one has the right to communicate, then one must also have the right to not receive communication from another. It is this latter corollary of the right to communicate that gives us our right to privacy.”

Interesting that you
are just now being told this?

Do you feel like you had the right to communicate to me when…..

  • …your sister had her car accident?
  • …on Mother’s Day, almost 3 years in a row, so far?
  • …on my birthday 3 years in a row, so far?
  • …you received the thoughtful and significant birthday gifts?
  • …you received the cute christmas presents for you and Sarah?
  • …your dad was diagnosed with brain cancer?
  • …your dad was dying from brain cancer and had only a couple months to live?
  • …the night he died, and I had to hide in a bedroom so you would at least come to his side?
  • …you didn’t come to your dad’s funeral because your “suppressive” family would be there?
  • …you couldn’t invite one single member of your blood family to your wedding?
  • …your grandma (nanny) was in the hospital for a week, after a stroke?

Honestly, I’m sure you were NOT told you had a right to choose to communicate or not to communicate (without serious ramification from the Church or Sarah Coziahr-Powers).  I’m sure you had no choice.

I’m sure of that because you told your dad’s mom, right after your dad died, when she asked you if “there was anything you wanted to tell your mom and your sister”, and you told her to tell us that, QUOTE, “tell them that I love them”!

FOURTH POINT:

The website states: “There is no policy in Scientology that requires Church members to disconnect from anyone, let alone family and friends who simply have different beliefs. To the contrary, the moral code of Scientology mandates that Scientologists respect the religious beliefs of others. The Church encourages excellent family relationships, Scientologists or not, and family relations routinely improve with Scientology because the Scientologist learns how to increase communication and resolve any problems that may have previously existed”. 

This is either a complete lie or a chilling play on words,
designed to be “truthful” yet leaving out words that are MOST important here!

The words that you might have missed (because they were not put in there) are –

The website SHOULD have stated:  …unless the friend or family member is in disagreement with Scientology or has ever voiced his disagreement and thereby subsequently was DECLARED SUPPRESSIVE (an evil person) by the Church, because he disagrees with it.

Nice that they left out that part, you know why?  Because literally thousands upon thousands of people (including famous people who tried Scientology and went a different route) have been DECLARED SUPPRESSIVE by the Church.

If you’ll go back up to that first paragraph, they don’t seem to touch on “suppressive”, but only describe the “antagonistic person”.

This is exactly what thousands of folks and the media are talking about!

Thousands upon thousands of folks are openly antagonistic
to this type of forced disconnection because it’s wrong.  

Staff are using LRH’s words loosely to ensure separation from those who disagree with Scientology from those who are part of Scientology.  Period.

If anyone is openly in disagreement with Scientology, for any reason, he will be declared SUPPRESSIVE.

Almost all of the so-called SUPPRESSIVE person declares are done to people who have declared that they no longer want to be part of the Church, or because they wouldn’t disconnect from a loved one who was declared for that same reason, or they “associated” in some fashion with someone who was declared suppressive —- but most interesting here is this is done especially if they have friends or family still “inside”.

Jeremy, this is not really new news.  The Church has been stating this all along, yet still conveniently ignores individual staff members across the planet who misapply the disconnection policies and who are declaring tons of people suppressive and using FORCE and THREATS to keep people under control – due to fear that more will openly declare their disagreements and leave.

Watch this music video, Sara Bareilles song, BRAVE

Lyrics:

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up

Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just want to see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there,
Everybody’s been stared down by the enemy
Fallen for the fear
And done some disappearing,
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, just stop holding your tongue

Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good,
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

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Jeremy, I love you, miss you and I want you in our life.  I have nothing against you being in Scientology, but as long as you are forced to stay disconnected from me and your family – I will continue to speak out.  Likewise, if Scientology stops abusing the “disconnection policy” I will never breathe another word regarding Scientology, one way or another.

Click here to get my contact information.

Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

Happy 23rd Birthday, My Jeremy Andrew Powers

images23Twenty-Three years ago today I looked at my baby boy and  gave you two of my favorite names – Jeremy Andrew.  I knew there was the chance folks would dub you as a “jerry” and I so hoped not.  Had you been called “Andrew” or “Andy” that would have been cool with me, as your mom.  I’m pleased to know that you have stayed “Jeremy” with the nickname “Jer”.

Happy Birthday my precious Jeremy, I hope you have a beautiful day!  Gosh, are you really already 23 years old?  Words are simply not enough to express how much you mean to me and how happy I am that you are my son, no matter where you are.  I love you.  I always want only the best for you and I hope your birthday bring loads of happiness and sweet memories in your life – and a successful year ahead.  

I’m sure Sarah will make sure your birthday special, she’s really awesome.  I know I’ll really be sad if she and I never have a relationship.  It completely blows me away how similar she is to me.  I know she’d fit in well in our family – Jeremy, I am proud of the choice you made  —- it was not your fault that Scientology tore us all apart.  I will always hold hope that someday we will all be able to associate again.

You know, while you were growing up, my mind was full of questions and mystery.  Mysteries like, what would you belovly-happy-birthday-cake-pictureds like when you grew up and would you be able to make a good life for yourself, and what would you end up doing to make a living in this world.  But as you grow up, one birthday after another, I know there’s nothing I need to worry about.

Every single year since you were born, you’ve added something amazing to my life. These past 3 years, being forced to disconnect, has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to deal with in my entire life.  Even the death of your father was not this tough.  But no matter where you are, I can’t imagine my life without you in it. 

So, since you’re not allowed to receive a gift from me, today, on your birthday, I’ll raise a toast to you – I love you with all heart.  I am always here for you. Forever.

I’m getting by, but I would really like to know that you’re truly happy, deep down in your sensitive heart.  I wish I knew.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

A Most Amazing Thing

Good Morning Jeremy!

Recently I read some really really good advice and wanted to share it with you.  Since I can’t share on Facebook I thought this might work.  It is from a website called “Finer Minds”.  I put a link back to the website inside the title.  I hope you enjoy this as much as I did.

I love you always and have you on my mind daily.

How To Be Thankful For People We Don’t Like:
5 Ways to Find Gratitude For Even the Most Difficult Person

Gratitude is the foundation of abundance. It is the cornerstone of living a purposeful, rewarding, joy-filled life. Gratitude activates the positive law of attraction vibrations.

If there are people in your life that you don’t like, the negative energy vibrations you transmit toward them drag down your positive vibes, and you end up lower down on the “vibes scale” than you want to be. For example, let’s say on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 is your highest positive vibration, and 1 will be your most negative.

Even if you have high vibes with most people in your life, just having one person you don’t like can drag your vibes down to a lower level.

It is in your best interests to find a way to be grateful to all people–yes, even if you hate them, even if they drive you crazy, even if you are completely justified in hating them because of their unspeakably heinous behavior towards you.

Here are five keys to transform your perspective.

1. Discover the Root of the Problem

The first step is to spend time with yourself and look into what happens to you when this particular person sets you off. Take the focus off them and shine the light fairly and squarely on yourself. You probably find you’re filled with a turmoil of emotions: anger, frustration, irritation, hurt, disappointment and so on. Allow these emotions to be there with non-judgment and compassion for yourself.

As you stay present to your emotions, they dissolve and you quickly re-discover your inner peace, clarity of mind and well-being. In addition, your sense of humor, and creativity return. From this place of wisdom and clarity, you can start to move into compassion and understand that the other person is living in pain and fear and doesn’t know a better way to behave.

2. Focus on the Good

Most people have some redeeming qualities, although in certain cases they are quite hidden from view. Assume the good qualities are in there, somewhere, because they are. Remember that everyone is born filled with love, joy, and inner peace. Somewhere in their life (for many people it’s because of an abusive childhood), this person has lost their way and become disconnected from the source of love. They have become trapped in a cycle of abuse — toward themselves and others.

Send this person vibrations of love. Pray for them. Ask that they will find their way back to the light. This does not mean that what they did to you was okay. It doesn’t mean that you have to spend time with them, or even have them in your life. It doesn’t mean that you are the person to help them.

It does mean, however, that you raise your positive vibration level.

3. Create Boundaries

One of the reasons people irritate us and get under our skin is because we don’t make our boundaries clear. It’s important to be clear about what is acceptable behavior toward us and what isn’t. This means we have to speak our truth, no matter what.

Everyone in your life should be respectful, friendly and courteous towards you. If they are not, it’s up to you to address the issue. Always make sure that you are respectful, kind and courteous towards others.

4. Mind Your Vibration

We get what we vibrate. If we speak to people in anger, that’s what we get back. If we are disrespectful, mean and insincere, that’s what we get back.

Allow your turbulent emotions to pass through you and, when you feel calm and relaxed, have a conversation with the person you don’t like, or write them an email or a letter. Communicate what you want with clarity, friendliness, and respect.

The more clearly you ask for what you want, the more likely you are to get it.

The number one reason you are doing this, remember, is to shift your vibrational level higher up the scale. With most people you get a positive response, but not always. Hold the faith, because the transformation in you is miraculous, irrespective of how the other person responds.

5. Understand the Power of Love

When we take 100 percent responsibility for what is happening inside of us, miracles happen. We find it easy to be grateful because we have transformed dislike into compassion.

Love is recognizing ourselves in the other.

On one level we are physical form and psychological makeup. On a deeper level we are all the consciousness of oneness. Love is the recognition of our oneness. Compassion, the highest form of love, then arises in us.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

Thinking of You

charlie and snoopy huggingMy Jeremy – you’re on my mind ALL the time!

Lately I’ve been having very vivid dreams of you, so detailed I continue to be amazed!  I enjoy these dreams, especially when it feels like I’ve hugged you and heard your laughter.

Christmas time is approaching fast, almost faster than I think it should…lol…I’m always keeping my calendar crammed full of fun things to do from about October through December.  It makes for a lot of fun.

downloadWe are having the traditional Christmas Eve dinner and opening gifts.  Again, like I said previously, you are invited and I’m sure that I would never need another present in my life, if you’d show up!!

I’m not doing much on Christmas day, probably play a bit of xbox, watch some TV (Dexter is my latest series of interest!).  I loved “Breaking Bad” and “Sons of Anarchy”, great series.  I won’t even mention how much I liked “Lost”.  However I will admit, I like watching them best on Netflix and not as they are happening, because I hate waiting a week to see what happens!  LOL, bad as getting a good book though, if you can’t turn it off and just go to bed.  Whew.  Love it.

I’ve been connecting up with a lot of family from Oregon, from my dad’s side of the family.  I found a very cool site that has our early early Bostwick history!!  I thought you’d be interested in looking at it.  It’s on www.bostock.net  Apparently our name was “Bostock” and the group that splintered off and went to America changed their names to “Bostwick”.  It’s pretty cool – if you find the genealogy page you’ll be able to drill down to find your name!!!  My grandfather was Willis Paul.  Have fun reading the history, I know how much you love that stuff.  You’d be amazed at how many awesome and loving relatives (closely related) we have in Oregon.

20130704_123543Speaking of Oregon, have I told you how amazingly beautiful that state is?  Breathtaking!  You’d love it.  Some day we will go there and see the ocean, desert, mountains, valley and rivers!  I think it would be a lot of fun to go camping too.

Some fun news…..when I took Nanny to Oregon this past summer, she was able to see her high school best friend again after 40 years of being apart.  I was able to snap a photo of this amazing reunion which showed so much love and emotion coming from her friend.  I submitted this photo to a work-related calendar photo contest and the photo won!  It will be featured in the new 2014 calendar in the UK. I thought this was pretty cool.  I love to snap photos.  Here is the shot.

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Well I must run for now, but I wanted you to know that I think about you all the time.  Truth be known, I think of all my children many times a day.  I’m so proud of all of you.  Love you tons!

You know, my birthday is the 15th, you sure are welcome to surprise me!

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
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A Similar Realization For Me

I Only Want My Family Back

Want to know something?  

I only want my family back.  

I just want to be able to see & talk to my son and be a family again.  

I want his little sister to have her brother back.

That’s all I want.  I will continue to write this blog and stay as public as I feel I need to be until this happens.  The fact that he is FORCED to disconnect from his family is not a real choice.  He’s told he will be damned to hell forever if he doesn’t.  What kind of choice is this?

Once my son is allowed to associate with me again, I really couldn’t care less about this organization or writing a blog about it.  I don’t care who gets involved and I don’t care if Jeremy stays involved, I never have.  It is his path, and I believe he has the right to his choices.

I have too many other things in my life that bring me happiness and no interest in “preaching my beliefs” to others.  I have explained it very well in a previous blog post.

But until the day I have my family back together I will continue to let people know that DISCONNECTION is FORCED BY THE CHURCH OF SCIENTOLOGY.

It’s real and it’s being practiced in the most ridiculous of ways possible!  Those on the “inside” are actually AFRAID to even be in the same building or look at someone that the church says is “bad”.

Completely ridiculous!

Some time back I read a blog post written by a “new” OT8 (which is the very highest level one can achieve in Scientology).  I agreed with it so much it felt like I had written it! 
Today I’m going to re-posting with the title linked back to his Geir’s blog.  This made me wonder how long it will be for my Jeremy to come through these steps because this is a very common path for MOST people who get involved with Scientology, and is the exact reason it is not expanding.
 
In fact, a LOT of folks go through the final steps silently because they fear losing friends and family to due to disconnection.  These folks just step away and pretend to be “just fine” – but they are actually SCARED to say they no longer “agree”.  That equates to Scientology CREATES fear.
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From Wog to Scientologist and Back to One’s Own Path

Written by Geir Isene – Click on the title to go to his site.

  1. This Scientology thing may be interesting.  But there is a lot of bad press about this. I will give it a try.
  2. Wow!  This communication course really works.  Scientology makes a lot of sense.  The media has got this one wrong.
  3. Scientology really has got the answers!  Hubbard was a genius.  I am a Scientologist.
  4. Everything I have experienced so far is 100% right.  The rest of Scientology must surely also be right
  5. Scientology is the One True Path to Total Freedom, the only hope for Man.
  6. The Church of Scientology is saving Mankind.  David Miscavige is the most dedicated, brilliant leader there is.  I follow Command Intention to the letter.
  7. There is something wrong in the Church that I can’t quite put my finger on.
  8. The Church is not applying Hubbard’s policy correctly.  And there is out-tech.  This is a local phenomenon.
  9. There seem to be global issues with the Church.  It is not expanding even though Miscavige says it is expanding like never before.
  10. Scientology is the Only True Path, but the current management is not on that path.  It has betrayed Hubbard.
  11. I am a dedicated Scientologist, and I can no longer support a suppressive Church.  I’m out!
  12. I am an Independent Scientologist.  I practice my religion outside of the confinement of the CoS.
  13. There sure are lots of diverging viewpoints among independent Scientologists.  But I have my own unassailable trust in Hubbard.
  14. Maybe the insanities in the Church did not start with Miscavige.  Maybe, just maybe some of the problems originated with Hubbard.
  15. Hmm… maybe Hubbard wasn’t right about everything.  Maybe there actually are other valid spiritual paths.
  16. Heck, Hubbard was wrong about a lot of things.  Crap!  My stable data are experiencing an earthquake.
  17. Scientology is a tool like so many tools out there.  It’s got its good and its bad.  I will use whatever works.
  18. I don’t really care one way or the other.  I am on my own path toward my own goals.

Not exactly my journey, but close. Although some flip to the opposite and go from fanatic to anti-fanatic, I see most people go through a similar list to the above. It may serve as a useful prediction.

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As I said, most people who get involved in Scientology take this same route right down to step 11 and then just simply “disappear” and stop going around.  They become impossible for Scientology to reach by phone etc.  These folks number in the thousands and if every single one of them would come forward, on a public level, I think it would be tougher for the organization to label all of them as “suppressives”!

Don’t you think there is power in numbers?

But you know it won’t happen because the brainwashing is extremely heavy and a lot of the people who make it to step 11 are still living in fear.  They are afraid of reading anything “negative”.  You would never believe how many of them are actually SCARED to even read anything on the internet about Scientology because they are conditioned to believe that reading “anti-Scientology” anything could actually restimulate their “OT Case” and kill them!

I am not even teasing!  They are told that there are certain things they could run into on the net that could kill them…….it’s so sad because even those who are telling them this, probably BELIEVE it themselves!

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Your Mom,
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Things That Are Happening – Here’s the News

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Your nephew, Blaine Harmon

Jeremy my son, I miss you wildly!  

I want to hug you, talk to you and share your life with you!  Thanksgiving and Christmas are just around the corner, you and Sarah are cordially invited over!  We are having dinner & gifts Christmas Eve (night) then games and fun!  I can’t even begin to tell you how much it would mean to me for the both of you to come.

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated you on much, but that certainly doesn’t mean that a lot isn’t going on.  I keep myself busy and happy as a bug-in-a-rug, most the time!

I love life!  I hope you do too.  I hope you’re very happy in what is happening in your life.

How does it feel to be, “Uncle Jeremy”?

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Blaine Harmon, your nephew

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Ashton Harmon

Blaine, your nephew is getting cuter by the minute!  This little guy has an amazing personality and is actually as much fun to be around as his big brother, Ashton!  Do you even remember being around Ashton?  Well, like it or not, lol, you are Uncle Jeremy.  How does it feel?  How I wish you were part of their lives.  I hope you have others in your life to take the place of your blood family.

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Travis and Brittany are doing fantastic.  He is out in Oklahoma still running a hoe in pipeline.  He has said a few times he could get you work out there, all the work you’d ever want, upwards of good money if you’re willing to travel!  Just remember that in case you ever feel the time’s right to return to your family.  We are all here, willing and able to help you.

Brittany is pregnant with their 2nd child and we’re told it will be a boy, destined to arrive on Travis’ birthday!  That has to be exciting!  You should see how happy they are as a family, it just makes my world when they come and bring the kids!  We don’t get to see Ash as often because he is in school and can’t just get out easily.  He is “blow your mind” amazing!  I love him to death and I know you’d be so impressed with him.  He’s a tiny thing, I’d say he probably doesn’t weigh more than 40 lbs.

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Heather

Your sister is doing well.  She is a front desk supervisor in a major (very nice) hotel chain.  She has the cutest cat you’ve ever seen, calls him “Jack”!  He is the sweetest thing.  LOL, makes me think of Saber.  He is still a bit cranky with strangers, but not near as bad as he used to be.  We have a lot of things happening around our BIG house and he has started accepting there are more humans than just Jim and I.

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Vince & Heather

Your sister has moved out into her own small loft apartment and has been making it go right since around June this year.  She loves living with her boyfriend, Vince.  Who knows, they might get married one of these days, too.  It would seem that they are doing really well.

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Goofy pic of me!

I’ve been doing well, as I said I’m one of the happiest people I know!  My sadness that surrounds the situation of you shunning us doesn’t consume my life, thank God.

My learning, expanding and enlightenment has continued and I’m in a very good and stable place in my life – ready for anything.  I don’t fear death in the least and I’m completely sure that you and I will have a good chuckle some day on the other side about all this stuff.  Course, I honestly hope we don’t have to wait that long.  I want to have all my family around me, bringing the grandkids over, having Christmas & Thanksgiving traditions that we start with our own family.  That’s what I hope for!

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My new massage chair!

I have a new toy at home.  Actually it isn’t really a “toy” but I pretend it is.  This chair is helping me with my back pain.  The back pain is the most frustrating part of my life these days as I just can’t seem to get it to stop hurting and I try to avoid taking pain medication as often as I can.  I will tell you that this chair makes me feel able to move my body after I’ve sat in it for 30 minutes!  You’d love it.  I keep it hidden away because it’s preciously important to me.

We have plenty of room for you and Sarah to come over and have a good time, spend the night and all.  With it being just Nanny, Jim and I, our 4-bedroom house serves as room for company to come and spend the night in a comfortable room.  I changed Heather’s old room into a guest room and used all her 8th art work as the theme!!!  LOL, she had changed the paint on one of the walls and I just went with it.  I didn’t really want to spend a lot on it, just make it comfortable and use the stuff we already had around here.

Here are a few shots I took as I was decorating the two rooms.  We have that “8th Grade Art” room that was Heather’s with a double bed in it, then there’s the “black & white” room with a double bed and decorated now in Beatles stuff (here’s a shot of it while I was still mid decorating) then there’s the twin sized room all done in Coca Cola stuff. It’s cute as hell!  Funniest thing, when Heather moved out we were always getting confused on which room was which when I totally moved all the stuff around, so we did something really funny and put room numbers on the doors in golden fancy writing – and put “restroom” on the bathroom.  The master bedroom has a sign that says “manager”.  We are silly, I know!  So now we refer to the rooms as “201”, “202” and “203”!

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Here’s also a couple shots from our front room and living room.  I have a lot more decorating to do as I make final decisions on how I want the rooms to look.  (God, you know I always take 2-3 years to get something decorated like I want it).  But hey, if you like to play xbox or other type video games, we now have the 42″ LCD in the front room (two bottom right hand pics), tucked away on the wall so anyone who wants to play games can do it while we watch TV in the living room (bottom left pic) on the new 65″ LED!!  Yep, that was mine and Jim’s big gift this year.  I’m completely amazed by how big and real the picture looks.  It makes watching a movie in your living an experience.  I certainly did want the 80″, but that might be a couple years down the road before we upgrade to one that size (when the prices come down).  Just saying I think you’d have a good time coming over.  We keep the two refrigerators stocked and the walk-in pantry has snacks you’d love!

I’d love to share more pictures with you, but I think it could get crazy!  I love photos and have a bunch of them.  Jeremy we’re all doing super well.  Like I said, spiritually & emotionally I’m completely stable and doing awesome.  It seems that I’m also able to manifest just about anything I want in my life – except you!  LOL, I’m still working on that one as we speak.

Time is Ticking

1372226_10151874447339411_232181301_oI never told you how close you came to losing your grandma (Nanny).  On September 27th she had a stroke and spent 4.5 days in the hospital.  This was caused by her uncontrolled high blood pressure that has just never been remedied in all these years.  She has taken many different alternative health routes, auditing through NED and a lot of medications.  I think we might finally have it under control for the first time in years!

We’re thankful she is still with us, because I honestly can’t imagine her dying, believing you absolutely didn’t give a damn about anyone in your family except yourself.  Whether that is true or not, how do you expect her to feel otherwise? As far as that goes, how about Heather?  I’m not as worried about me, but those two!

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Nanny being funny!

Here is a more recent picture of her, since coming out of the hospital.  I can tell you that she looks the same, but isn’t quite “the same”.  Her personality has changed, so at this point, you will never have the grandma you used to know.

Jeremy, she pulled out of it this time. There will come a day that she will be leaving us.  I know we believe that will be 20 years from now, but nobody knows how long they have!

 

 

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Mike Rinder wrote an article that shows how there is a double standard in Scientology with regards to who is forced to disconnect and who isn’t – that I thought you’d be interested in reading.  It’s a viewpoint for sure, considering you were forced to disconnect from your entire family (as were others) however if you’re a particular celebrity, you don’t have to.  Who is making these rules up, Jeremy?  Mike says, “But I would guess the “Tom Cruise Syndrome” is going to come into play. No action will be taken. It will be treated as a “special circumstance” because it would create a media frenzy and “black PR.”  It’s why no disconnection is enforced for Tom from Kate or Nicole…” Read the whole article below.

 

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Double Standard, Not Everyone Is Forced to Di$connect!
(Story from Mike Rinder’s site, click here for the original article)

Now that Leah Remini is officially a Special Person (see Tony Ortega’s blog this morning), the big question becomes whether Miscavige is going to attempt to enforce the oft-employed disconnection card with Jennifer Lopez.

Everyone knows JLo and Leah are BFFs. They were hanging at JLo’s party last nite and featured on the People Mag site (and everywhere else).

It is also common knowledge that JLo’s father is a Scientologist.

So, what is the guy who proclaims to be the enforcer of “standard tech” to do? Would eh dare risk trying to force J Lo to choose between her dad and Leah?  She IS after all, connected to an officially declared Special Person and publicly supporting her. That makes her guilty of a “Suppressive Act”.  And thus her father should be getting the same treatment as the peons are subjected to: “Get your daughter to disconnect from the SP or you will be declared guilty of a Suppressive Act and be declared too.”

This EXACT scenario has happened with HUNDREDS of people in just the last year.

But I would guess the “Tom Cruise Syndrome” is going to come into play. No action will be taken. It will be treated as a “special circumstance” because it would create a media frenzy and “black PR.”  It’s why no disconnection is enforced for Tom from Kate or Nicole…

Amazing how the “deeply held religious beliefs” and “upholding of standard tech” melts in the face of media scrutiny. Those lives and families of the “nobodies” that are destroyed mean nothing because they don’t get media attention.

It’s a sickening double standard.

PS: Welcome Leah to the ranks of Special Persons – goldenrod is the new black. :)

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Jeremy do you have to keep your head in video games to escape the reality that you are being denied your family? What in the world are you doing to cope with this?  I guess it was worth it, if the St. Louis Org has now expanded since us four “SPs” were gotten off the lines!

 

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

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