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A Similar Realization For Me

I Only Want My Family Back

Want to know something?  

I only want my family back.  

I just want to be able to see & talk to my son and be a family again.  

I want his little sister to have her brother back.

That’s all I want.  I will continue to write this blog and stay as public as I feel I need to be until this happens.  The fact that he is FORCED to disconnect from his family is not a real choice.  He’s told he will be damned to hell forever if he doesn’t.  What kind of choice is this?

Once my son is allowed to associate with me again, I really couldn’t care less about this organization or writing a blog about it.  I don’t care who gets involved and I don’t care if Jeremy stays involved, I never have.  It is his path, and I believe he has the right to his choices.

I have too many other things in my life that bring me happiness and no interest in “preaching my beliefs” to others.  I have explained it very well in a previous blog post.

But until the day I have my family back together I will continue to let people know that DISCONNECTION is FORCED BY THE CHURCH OF SCIENTOLOGY.

It’s real and it’s being practiced in the most ridiculous of ways possible!  Those on the “inside” are actually AFRAID to even be in the same building or look at someone that the church says is “bad”.

Completely ridiculous!

Some time back I read a blog post written by a “new” OT8 (which is the very highest level one can achieve in Scientology).  I agreed with it so much it felt like I had written it! 
Today I’m going to re-posting with the title linked back to his Geir’s blog.  This made me wonder how long it will be for my Jeremy to come through these steps because this is a very common path for MOST people who get involved with Scientology, and is the exact reason it is not expanding.
 
In fact, a LOT of folks go through the final steps silently because they fear losing friends and family to due to disconnection.  These folks just step away and pretend to be “just fine” – but they are actually SCARED to say they no longer “agree”.  That equates to Scientology CREATES fear.
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From Wog to Scientologist and Back to One’s Own Path

Written by Geir Isene – Click on the title to go to his site.

  1. This Scientology thing may be interesting.  But there is a lot of bad press about this. I will give it a try.
  2. Wow!  This communication course really works.  Scientology makes a lot of sense.  The media has got this one wrong.
  3. Scientology really has got the answers!  Hubbard was a genius.  I am a Scientologist.
  4. Everything I have experienced so far is 100% right.  The rest of Scientology must surely also be right
  5. Scientology is the One True Path to Total Freedom, the only hope for Man.
  6. The Church of Scientology is saving Mankind.  David Miscavige is the most dedicated, brilliant leader there is.  I follow Command Intention to the letter.
  7. There is something wrong in the Church that I can’t quite put my finger on.
  8. The Church is not applying Hubbard’s policy correctly.  And there is out-tech.  This is a local phenomenon.
  9. There seem to be global issues with the Church.  It is not expanding even though Miscavige says it is expanding like never before.
  10. Scientology is the Only True Path, but the current management is not on that path.  It has betrayed Hubbard.
  11. I am a dedicated Scientologist, and I can no longer support a suppressive Church.  I’m out!
  12. I am an Independent Scientologist.  I practice my religion outside of the confinement of the CoS.
  13. There sure are lots of diverging viewpoints among independent Scientologists.  But I have my own unassailable trust in Hubbard.
  14. Maybe the insanities in the Church did not start with Miscavige.  Maybe, just maybe some of the problems originated with Hubbard.
  15. Hmm… maybe Hubbard wasn’t right about everything.  Maybe there actually are other valid spiritual paths.
  16. Heck, Hubbard was wrong about a lot of things.  Crap!  My stable data are experiencing an earthquake.
  17. Scientology is a tool like so many tools out there.  It’s got its good and its bad.  I will use whatever works.
  18. I don’t really care one way or the other.  I am on my own path toward my own goals.

Not exactly my journey, but close. Although some flip to the opposite and go from fanatic to anti-fanatic, I see most people go through a similar list to the above. It may serve as a useful prediction.

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As I said, most people who get involved in Scientology take this same route right down to step 11 and then just simply “disappear” and stop going around.  They become impossible for Scientology to reach by phone etc.  These folks number in the thousands and if every single one of them would come forward, on a public level, I think it would be tougher for the organization to label all of them as “suppressives”!

Don’t you think there is power in numbers?

But you know it won’t happen because the brainwashing is extremely heavy and a lot of the people who make it to step 11 are still living in fear.  They are afraid of reading anything “negative”.  You would never believe how many of them are actually SCARED to even read anything on the internet about Scientology because they are conditioned to believe that reading “anti-Scientology” anything could actually restimulate their “OT Case” and kill them!

I am not even teasing!  They are told that there are certain things they could run into on the net that could kill them…….it’s so sad because even those who are telling them this, probably BELIEVE it themselves!

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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Things That Are Happening – Here’s the News

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Your nephew, Blaine Harmon

Jeremy my son, I miss you wildly!  

I want to hug you, talk to you and share your life with you!  Thanksgiving and Christmas are just around the corner, you and Sarah are cordially invited over!  We are having dinner & gifts Christmas Eve (night) then games and fun!  I can’t even begin to tell you how much it would mean to me for the both of you to come.

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated you on much, but that certainly doesn’t mean that a lot isn’t going on.  I keep myself busy and happy as a bug-in-a-rug, most the time!

I love life!  I hope you do too.  I hope you’re very happy in what is happening in your life.

How does it feel to be, “Uncle Jeremy”?

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Blaine Harmon, your nephew

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Ashton Harmon

Blaine, your nephew is getting cuter by the minute!  This little guy has an amazing personality and is actually as much fun to be around as his big brother, Ashton!  Do you even remember being around Ashton?  Well, like it or not, lol, you are Uncle Jeremy.  How does it feel?  How I wish you were part of their lives.  I hope you have others in your life to take the place of your blood family.

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Travis and Brittany are doing fantastic.  He is out in Oklahoma still running a hoe in pipeline.  He has said a few times he could get you work out there, all the work you’d ever want, upwards of good money if you’re willing to travel!  Just remember that in case you ever feel the time’s right to return to your family.  We are all here, willing and able to help you.

Brittany is pregnant with their 2nd child and we’re told it will be a boy, destined to arrive on Travis’ birthday!  That has to be exciting!  You should see how happy they are as a family, it just makes my world when they come and bring the kids!  We don’t get to see Ash as often because he is in school and can’t just get out easily.  He is “blow your mind” amazing!  I love him to death and I know you’d be so impressed with him.  He’s a tiny thing, I’d say he probably doesn’t weigh more than 40 lbs.

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Heather

Your sister is doing well.  She is a front desk supervisor in a major (very nice) hotel chain.  She has the cutest cat you’ve ever seen, calls him “Jack”!  He is the sweetest thing.  LOL, makes me think of Saber.  He is still a bit cranky with strangers, but not near as bad as he used to be.  We have a lot of things happening around our BIG house and he has started accepting there are more humans than just Jim and I.

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Vince & Heather

Your sister has moved out into her own small loft apartment and has been making it go right since around June this year.  She loves living with her boyfriend, Vince.  Who knows, they might get married one of these days, too.  It would seem that they are doing really well.

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Goofy pic of me!

I’ve been doing well, as I said I’m one of the happiest people I know!  My sadness that surrounds the situation of you shunning us doesn’t consume my life, thank God.

My learning, expanding and enlightenment has continued and I’m in a very good and stable place in my life – ready for anything.  I don’t fear death in the least and I’m completely sure that you and I will have a good chuckle some day on the other side about all this stuff.  Course, I honestly hope we don’t have to wait that long.  I want to have all my family around me, bringing the grandkids over, having Christmas & Thanksgiving traditions that we start with our own family.  That’s what I hope for!

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My new massage chair!

I have a new toy at home.  Actually it isn’t really a “toy” but I pretend it is.  This chair is helping me with my back pain.  The back pain is the most frustrating part of my life these days as I just can’t seem to get it to stop hurting and I try to avoid taking pain medication as often as I can.  I will tell you that this chair makes me feel able to move my body after I’ve sat in it for 30 minutes!  You’d love it.  I keep it hidden away because it’s preciously important to me.

We have plenty of room for you and Sarah to come over and have a good time, spend the night and all.  With it being just Nanny, Jim and I, our 4-bedroom house serves as room for company to come and spend the night in a comfortable room.  I changed Heather’s old room into a guest room and used all her 8th art work as the theme!!!  LOL, she had changed the paint on one of the walls and I just went with it.  I didn’t really want to spend a lot on it, just make it comfortable and use the stuff we already had around here.

Here are a few shots I took as I was decorating the two rooms.  We have that “8th Grade Art” room that was Heather’s with a double bed in it, then there’s the “black & white” room with a double bed and decorated now in Beatles stuff (here’s a shot of it while I was still mid decorating) then there’s the twin sized room all done in Coca Cola stuff. It’s cute as hell!  Funniest thing, when Heather moved out we were always getting confused on which room was which when I totally moved all the stuff around, so we did something really funny and put room numbers on the doors in golden fancy writing – and put “restroom” on the bathroom.  The master bedroom has a sign that says “manager”.  We are silly, I know!  So now we refer to the rooms as “201”, “202” and “203”!

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Here’s also a couple shots from our front room and living room.  I have a lot more decorating to do as I make final decisions on how I want the rooms to look.  (God, you know I always take 2-3 years to get something decorated like I want it).  But hey, if you like to play xbox or other type video games, we now have the 42″ LCD in the front room (two bottom right hand pics), tucked away on the wall so anyone who wants to play games can do it while we watch TV in the living room (bottom left pic) on the new 65″ LED!!  Yep, that was mine and Jim’s big gift this year.  I’m completely amazed by how big and real the picture looks.  It makes watching a movie in your living an experience.  I certainly did want the 80″, but that might be a couple years down the road before we upgrade to one that size (when the prices come down).  Just saying I think you’d have a good time coming over.  We keep the two refrigerators stocked and the walk-in pantry has snacks you’d love!

I’d love to share more pictures with you, but I think it could get crazy!  I love photos and have a bunch of them.  Jeremy we’re all doing super well.  Like I said, spiritually & emotionally I’m completely stable and doing awesome.  It seems that I’m also able to manifest just about anything I want in my life – except you!  LOL, I’m still working on that one as we speak.

Time is Ticking

1372226_10151874447339411_232181301_oI never told you how close you came to losing your grandma (Nanny).  On September 27th she had a stroke and spent 4.5 days in the hospital.  This was caused by her uncontrolled high blood pressure that has just never been remedied in all these years.  She has taken many different alternative health routes, auditing through NED and a lot of medications.  I think we might finally have it under control for the first time in years!

We’re thankful she is still with us, because I honestly can’t imagine her dying, believing you absolutely didn’t give a damn about anyone in your family except yourself.  Whether that is true or not, how do you expect her to feel otherwise? As far as that goes, how about Heather?  I’m not as worried about me, but those two!

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Nanny being funny!

Here is a more recent picture of her, since coming out of the hospital.  I can tell you that she looks the same, but isn’t quite “the same”.  Her personality has changed, so at this point, you will never have the grandma you used to know.

Jeremy, she pulled out of it this time. There will come a day that she will be leaving us.  I know we believe that will be 20 years from now, but nobody knows how long they have!

 

 

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Mike Rinder wrote an article that shows how there is a double standard in Scientology with regards to who is forced to disconnect and who isn’t – that I thought you’d be interested in reading.  It’s a viewpoint for sure, considering you were forced to disconnect from your entire family (as were others) however if you’re a particular celebrity, you don’t have to.  Who is making these rules up, Jeremy?  Mike says, “But I would guess the “Tom Cruise Syndrome” is going to come into play. No action will be taken. It will be treated as a “special circumstance” because it would create a media frenzy and “black PR.”  It’s why no disconnection is enforced for Tom from Kate or Nicole…” Read the whole article below.

 

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Double Standard, Not Everyone Is Forced to Di$connect!
(Story from Mike Rinder’s site, click here for the original article)

Now that Leah Remini is officially a Special Person (see Tony Ortega’s blog this morning), the big question becomes whether Miscavige is going to attempt to enforce the oft-employed disconnection card with Jennifer Lopez.

Everyone knows JLo and Leah are BFFs. They were hanging at JLo’s party last nite and featured on the People Mag site (and everywhere else).

It is also common knowledge that JLo’s father is a Scientologist.

So, what is the guy who proclaims to be the enforcer of “standard tech” to do? Would eh dare risk trying to force J Lo to choose between her dad and Leah?  She IS after all, connected to an officially declared Special Person and publicly supporting her. That makes her guilty of a “Suppressive Act”.  And thus her father should be getting the same treatment as the peons are subjected to: “Get your daughter to disconnect from the SP or you will be declared guilty of a Suppressive Act and be declared too.”

This EXACT scenario has happened with HUNDREDS of people in just the last year.

But I would guess the “Tom Cruise Syndrome” is going to come into play. No action will be taken. It will be treated as a “special circumstance” because it would create a media frenzy and “black PR.”  It’s why no disconnection is enforced for Tom from Kate or Nicole…

Amazing how the “deeply held religious beliefs” and “upholding of standard tech” melts in the face of media scrutiny. Those lives and families of the “nobodies” that are destroyed mean nothing because they don’t get media attention.

It’s a sickening double standard.

PS: Welcome Leah to the ranks of Special Persons – goldenrod is the new black. :)

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Jeremy do you have to keep your head in video games to escape the reality that you are being denied your family? What in the world are you doing to cope with this?  I guess it was worth it, if the St. Louis Org has now expanded since us four “SPs” were gotten off the lines!

 

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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AFFORDABLE Insurance Available for Jeremy

Hi Jeremy!!  I haven’t written in a long while, but it certainly doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking of you.

First and foremost on my mind is this new healthcare law.  I understand you’re required to carry health insurance and if you don’t have it then you can be charged a fairly substantial penalty, which seems affordable this first year but get’s completely un-affordable the subsequent years.

I want you to know that you can EASILY be added to my insurance here at work and it would only cost you about $100 a month.  Of course, we’d have to speak to each other in order to accomplish this!

—– I believe your dictating authority would realize it might be the “greatest good for the greatest number of your dynamics” to do this.

Jeremy, please soon realize that you are NOT in violation of L. Ron Hubbard’s Scientology policies if you happen to look at me (see me), speak to me when necessary/of importance or otherwise acknowledge my existence — that you pretend I’m dead happens to be a HUGE MU (misunderstood word) that’s prevalent within the confines of your religion.  It’s also the single biggest thing that Scientologists are doing (against LRH’s better judgement) that is massively harming public opinion of Scientology.   

With that said, I know that you’re NOT ALLOWED to “associate” with me, as I’m branded as evil, so you couldn’t hang out, come for Christmas, birthdays or BBQ’s (funerals are not included in this).  However, in all fairness and on that note, do a little research online and you’ll find that the Church of Scientology continues to claim that they do not practice disconnection……meaning you don’t really have to disconnect.

I dreamed of you so vividly last night.  I was able to hug you big when you came through my front door.  It was weird because I could tell you thought it was wrong.

What in the hell has this Earth come to?  Where is true humanity?

I will write later about how we almost lost Nanny recently.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

Erry “Ghost Town” Orgs on West Coast

Jeremy, today I read something that I felt I needed to share with you & Sarah.  I know this news will come to a surprise to you guys because you’re not being told these things, in fact, it’s likely you’re being told just the opposite!

This is a report of the real condition of the orgs on the west coast (Bay area) from someone who is secretly out, below the radar – so to say – so he can still go inside the orgs.

Jeremy & Sarah the west coast orgs are complete ghost towns where veteran Scientologists are leaving in droves!

A lot of them are too afraid to say they are disconnected from the CoS, but a big handful have come out openly.

The net effect is that the orgs are literally emptying and only a small handful of the “same old folks” and a few new folks coming in for intro services (and leaving just as fast) are all that are there.  Does this sound similar to how it’s been in STL for years?

The following article was an email received telling what the actual scene is in the area – which gives a lot of detail, originally posted on Mike Rinder’s blog (please click on his name to find out the full credentials of this 30-year Scientology veteran, coming from “up lines” in the most senior echelon, International Management).    The actual post is here, http://www.mikerindersblog.org/a-special-correspondent-report-from-the-bay-area/

I was completely blown away

by the some of the information:

“There is an Underground Railroad spanning the entire country.  When Freewinds ship handlers arrived in major metropolitan cities like Denver, Chicago, LA, SF Bay Area, etc., they have addressed Debbie Cook’s testimony on the stand with “people lie on the stand all the time.” In being questioned about how you and Marty could turn into overnight SPs after 30 plus years of staff and auditing by the best of the best auditors. The answer was that you, Debbie, Marty and the rest were plants. This was said with a straight face after they had to take your golden rods out of a locked safe.”

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At what point does Scientology work?

Jeremy, that is complete absurdity.   Let’s examine this for a second and assume that it’s true.   Here we go, Marty Rathbun, Debbie Cook AND Mike Rinder were all 30+ year plants in the orgs to undermine Scientology.  First of all, who planted them, the government or psychiatry?  Second of all, who was stupid enough to let all three of them into the most senior stata of the CoS and leave them there for 30+ years?   –  Jeremy, I beg you to consider my biggest question – at what point does Scientology start to work?  When does it work for the orgs and staff?   Would you be expected to just ignore this one tiny little OUT-point even though Scientology ” has the tech of life”, the complete SP tech, the evaluator’s data course (which trains one to find the correct reason, or cause of something going wrong or not working right).  Talk about an “out-point”!  Perhaps they should have told you that your family were aliens from some other planet and it was recently discovered on the e-meter! Why not?  It sounds as plausible as the above cooked up response!

What did Matt Hanses say that allowed you to close the case on the oddity that overnight your mother, grandmother, sister and step-father all became suppressive people?  Did someone convince you that it was an ethics action and not that we are “actual SPs”?  In that case, did you question why LRH’s ethics tech of gradient ethics actions were not used, per HCO PL ETHICS REVIEW?    I’ve even heard it said that “well, they resigned and so we are no longer obliged to apply LRH tech to them”.  Hilarious.  This is especially hilarious since that particular tech is also supposedly being used in NON Scientology businesses (I don’t actually believe this) and that it is said that this tech applied to the “world at large”. Read the policies and you’ll see how absurd this is.  Darn, I’m ranting again, sorry……

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Here is the full article,
and I recommend you read it
because you’re being lied to
about the expansion of CoS,
there is NO expansion at all,
anywhere.

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scientology-san-franciscoDear Mike,

I wanted to give you an update on the Bay Area Scientology scene. As you know there are San Fransisco, Stevens Creek, Los Gatos and Mountain View orgs in this fifty mile area. Recently included to the grouping of the Bay Area orgs is Sacramento — about one hundred miles from most of the Bay Area. All Bay Area orgs sit empty. Just to be clear, there are probably half a dozen veteran public that appear for course once a week to keep their PR in.

It’s a sad state of affairs that while each org sits empty of public, some of the most well-intended (and misguided) staff you ever care to meet continue to hope for a better day when the miracle program from uplines will flood the orgs with public. It’s a hurry up and wait mentality. All faith based.

Awokened public are staying away. In fact, at this point many public Scientologists are refusing, albeit under the radar, to disconnect from the declared and the “not in good standing”.

The situation with disillusionment on the part of the public has not only grown but also changed dramatically in the past two years. At first those public that openly left or walked away were looked down on. Now they are sought and welcomed. The sec checks, rollbacks, loyalty checks and metered interviews left public feeling violated and spiritually raped. Following Debbie Cook’s letter, Leah Remini’s recent defection has given some public the confidence to reestablish and mend broken fences with friends and family who’ve been vilified by the church ‘s MAAs and local DSAs for refusing to participate or for questioning church management.

The local DSAs have voiced to their closest confidantes that they do not know what to do with the growing disaffection and media onslaught. The dead agent packs are so vile and hateful that they backfire on these DSAs when they show them to public. Though in many cases the DSAs don’t know it. Public smile and act handled. Then disappear. Public are aware that OSA is now specializing in the vilification of their own public and former staff. Public know that their auditing information can be used against them.

My spouse and I recently had lunch with a woman who had been vilified to us by the DSAs and the “Mike Smiths”. When we met with her we were surprised because she looked so good. I suppose we expected her to look bad or devastated after everything we’d heard. Instead we saw a successful and healthy woman proud of her family, loving life and involved in her community.

In contrast, one of the DSAs was extremely ill for a while and another one is so overweight we’re concerned he could have a heart attack. Another DSA has been dealing with divorce and financial woes. The DSAs look slovenly and unwell. They were once well regarded people, so it’s hard to watch them decay before our eyes.

This is Lori (Leake) Hodgson territory. Many of us had children in her school. We know her as a hardworking Mom. No one here wants to experience what she has had to. There isn’t one person we know who condones what the church has done to the minds of her children. We can only think that what these DSAs have done to Lori and to their public is making them unwell and unhappy.

Let me tell you about an incident that helped turn the tide here with some key public.  An OT Committee chairman, who runs a real estate firm took it upon himself to research the value of homes belonging to public Scientologists. He cross referenced his research against mortgages on the homes then told the public Scientologists how much they were each to donate based on percentages of these assets. One particular Jewish Scientologist took such offense to this that he figured out how to get out of Dodge. This public Scientologist’s home is valued at over five million-dollars. He’s moving his family, with his wife who is a new OT8, to where there are no orgs.

It is believed by many veteran public Scientologists locally that the class five orgs are shells for the IAS. The staff are paid more from the net commissions for IAS payments made by their public than from the delivery of auditing and training, as there is very little auditing and training occurring in the Bay Area, mostly Basics, Purifs, TR and Objectives co-audits. The org auditors who were trained at Flag for GAT 2 grades are not allowed to deliver the “new” grades until GAT 2 is officially released, even though the orgs sent these GAT 2 auditors for training over two years ago. Local public Scientologists are urged to do their grades at Flag, leaving their Ideal orgs to live off the minute income from the sales of Basics courses, TRs and Objectives and Purifs. Meeting monthly phone bill and gas and electric payments is the Hill 10 of the day for these Ideal Org EDs.

The EDs look haggard and beaten. The very last of the influential Scientologists left are on course or on staff hiding out in what’s left of the missions. There are less than a handful of missions left. The Campbell mission opened in the San Jose area then closed almost as soon as it opened (I heard it was closed shortly after Gold filmed the grand opening for an Int event). Another mission in San Jose has the facade of being opened for business but nothing is going on. It was also opened in time to make a Gold video for an international event. It looks like a garage. It sits empty and uncreated, opened by a few ethics bait second generation Scientologists.

Most of the local orgs can’t get more than twenty public to arrive for regular events or IAS briefings. We have all attended the (re)grand opening of the Ideal Orgs and, with a few exceptions, it’s the same recycled public at each (re)grand opening.

There are many more Scientologists talking about yours and Tony’s blog than there are public on lines, and even those on lines public are reading the blogs, connected to the declared and “not in good standing”, and are simply playing along for fear of disconnection. The disaffected public that ethics officers or OSA handled over the past few years are now immutably and permanently disaffected. They feel betrayed by the lies and manipulations of their “ethics” handlings. In most of these cycles these public were manipulated to believe they were full of OWs and Suppressive Acts as the cause of their issues with the church. They were gotten to turn in their friends to OSA which they now feel degraded about. I just heard about a highly trained field auditor who was handled for being disaffected and made to turn in his computers containing communications with other disaffected Scientologists.

There is an Underground Railroad spanning the entire country. When Freewinds ship handlers arrived in major metropolitan cities like Denver, Chicago, LA, SF Bay Area, etc., they have addressed Debbie Cook’s testimony on the stand with “people lie on the stand all the time.” In being questioned about how you and Marty could turn into overnight SPs after 30 plus years of staff and auditing by the best of the best auditors. The answer was that you, Debbie, Marty and the rest were plants. This was said with a straight face after they had to take your golden rods out of a locked safe.

Scientology is irrelevant in the Bay Area.

I could safely guess that about half the public are praying for the incessant demands to end.

The other half are trying to predict when the church will fall.

Sincerely,
WhoIsDisaffected

Jeremy & Sarah, you’re both beautiful big beings

You both have the ability to exercise your free-will and have independent thoughts.  You were taught by CoS to be self-determined and you have inalienable rights to your own path in life and to speak to whoever you want.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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Is Sarah Coziahr Stalking Me?

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Just the other day I went to my LinkedIn account and took a screenshot of what I found!  It shows me that Sarah Coziahr is staying CONNECTED to me or she is stalking me.  I find this very interesting for sure!

It just breaks my heart Sarah actually heavily monitors Jeremy’s Facebook account and deletes anyone who might be related to him.

I know this because many of Jeremy’s family, like cousins, have had their hearts broken by being removed from his friends list.  It’s clear that he didn’t remove them because they had been on his friends list all along and were not a threat at all to him.   The only threat they might ever have posed was to Sarah in worrying that if Jeremy has any contact at all with any of his past (any family at all!) then he might feel the pain of being disconnected and having no blood family any more!!

imagesabcI find it so hard to to believe that she thinks he will be fine with this total family disconnection for the rest of his life.

Scientology requires his disconnection because I no longer want to be part of it and was subsequently accused of breaking their rules, and Sarah enforces it on Jeremy.  Mark my words, because I’m willing to lay down money that this forced disconnection will slowly erode his happiness and she will slowly lose the beautiful essence of Jeremy over time!  I know my boy, and it has to be depressing to him and as he grows more mature he will feel the void more than ever.

Jeremy has always been a tender and loving son and ironically I’m completely positive that ultimately it will be Sarah who will lose that beautiful part of Jeremy — because no matter what the Church of Scientology preaches, BLOOD IS THICKER and FAMILY are IMPORTANT!

When followers of the The Church of Scientology are required to disconnect from people they love (like family), they’re convinced that there isn’t such a thing as “family”, “your parents” or “your children”.  They’re brainwashed into believing that “we are all just spiritual and playing a game that isn’t real”……..they tell them it’s just a game of “you’re the mom”, “you’re the kid” and it’s not a big deal.

The truth is that family who love you are very important in our lives and I know that Jeremy will some day harbor a grudge against both Sarah and Scientology for making him believe that his dad was just a “thetan” and how he was convinced he shouldn’t spend the last days with his father!!

 

I’m sorry, but I see this as true  full-blown evil for Sarah to monitor Jeremy’s communication lines.  For instance, before Jeremy’s dad died last September and I was trying so hard to get the message to him that his dad was dying and had very little time left I asked my cousin Jodie to  send him a FB message letting him know how serious it really was.  His dad, Danny, just wanted to be with his kids during his last few months.  (It literally kills me knowing that Danny died believing Jeremy didn’t give a shit!).

Jodie reported back to me that not only did he not respond to her, but she was immediately deleted from his friends.

This particular cousin lives in Washington state, has never had anything to do with Scientology and is my mom’s deceased brother’s daughter, who is far removed from me and there was no reason why Jeremy would severe ties with her.   She is a beautiful being who was no threat at all to him.

I know Sarah had to be the one to delete her and I’m betting she also deleted the message before Jeremy could read it!

There are many who are required by the Church of Scientology to disconnect from their loved ones.  These people are threatened with losing their “eternity” (salvation) if they don’t and told they too will be kicked out of  the group as well.  However, there are a large number of those people who secretly DO NOT disconnect – especially when their loved ones were only declared suppressive people because they no longer wanted to be part of that group.  Jeremy could have stayed connected secretly to us, and I’m positive he would if it weren’t for the threats from Sarah.

Someday Sarah will know how horrible it is (or would be) to lose your child.  I’m positive that one day this horror will be very real to her … just ask any parent what they think of the thought of losing one of their children!

But for all of this……and I know it sounds weird, but I want to go on record again as saying that I think she is a wonderful girl for Jeremy.  Honestly I’m sure I would have loved her a lot and would have been proud to have her as my daughter-in-law.  As a person, she was actually a great pick for Jeremy and ultimately it’s The Church of Scientology that has created all this sadness and caused her to act so irrationally.  

As it is though, I know the level of brainwashed that Sarah is.  I know the constant fear she lives in with Scientology’s threat of being able to take her spiritual freedom (salvation) away.  That is the part that breaks my heart, because unless she wakes up there will never be a real family and she will lose that beautiful essence of Jeremy.

Ultimately my main point was that if Jeremy isn’t allowed to even look at me, isn’t allowed to even see my posts on mutual relatives Facebook pages (that might show in his feed), isn’t allowed to be anywhere that he might even glance at me – because the Church of Scientology tells him I’m evil for leaving – then how is it okay for Sarah to keep tabs on me?

I love and miss my Jeremy so much more than he knows.

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Love Always,
Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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Why Did Cathy Coziahr (Crist) Leave?

404737_4599315579373_1068401578_n2Jeremy it’s always been a mystery to me how come your fiance, Sarah Coziahr, has not disconnected from her mom.

Sarah’s mom, Cathy Crist (formerly Coziahr).

Have you ever thought to ask why Cathy, a Scientology Clear and a 25+ year Scientology veteran, left?

What’s the story you’re told?  “Oh, she decide to go back to being a Catholic”?  Really?  Would a Clear do that?

A better explanation is that “she was in the ‘no interference zone’ between Clear and OT and she keyed in” — do you buy that one?  And you believe she refused to be handled, even when her husband, Barry Coziahr, was a full-time staff member and her daughter had joined the Sea Org?

Jeremy, Cathy was a very active and dedicated Scientologist for probably 25-30 years.  It would make your head spin for you to realize how deeply involved she really had been.

Realize that she actually chose to get divorced and LEAVE Scientology.  How many explanations can people be given to make it all make sense Jeremy?  Sarah will explain and justify in all sorts of ways because she would never want to disconnect from her mom and sister!  Just amazing that she continues to force you to stay disconnected from your loving family.

Has it ever crossed your mind that my decision was correct?  Do you think Cathy has silently left and become an EX-Scientologist because she got bored with it all or some other such silly nonsense?  My sweet naive Jeremy, please put some thoughts into this one.

She is silent only because she doesn’t want to lose her daughter’s love.  She left Scientology for VERY LEGITIMATE reasons and all for the same reasons we left!!

Your told how suppressive Jim and I are because we continue to spew our thoughts out here.  Interestingly enough, your little sister, Heather, has NEVER publicly uttered a derogatory statement – so just how suppressive is she?  You do realize don’t you that the ONLY ONLY ONLY ONLY reason Jim or I continue to talk and “fight back” is because Scientology has stolen my son?  I have no other disagreement with it.  In fact, like Cathy Crist, I have no interest at all in it and I don’t care who is involved.

I will continue to speak out for as long as they force you to stay disconnected from me.

The only time I ever get to see you is in my dreams.  Almost every night you come back to my life and I hug you and cry with joy that your smiling face is next to me!  Only in my dreams!

You actually lied to me.  You told me you would never “REALLY” disconnect from me.  Isn’t this what “corporate” Scientologists do best?  Lie.  Oh, but honestly, it’s for the greatest good —- for them.  Do you know how long this “saving the planet” thing has been going on?  Is it working?

Jeremy, at what point does Scientology start working?

 Oh wait, I have the answer……”on your next paid service”!

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Love Always,
Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

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As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog. please click here to see why I write this blog. 

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