Penguins & Typewriters

Aunt_arctic_typing_at_her_typewriterJeremy today is the day before Christmas Eve. I’m thinking of you.

We all have a chocolate penguin in our stocking in honor of our love for you! (Our very own inside joke).

I love you.  I found so many cool gift ideas for you.  I hope you both have a beautiful Christmas.



Thinking of You

charlie and snoopy huggingMy Jeremy – you’re on my mind ALL the time!

Lately I’ve been having very vivid dreams of you, so detailed I continue to be amazed!  I enjoy these dreams, especially when it feels like I’ve hugged you and heard your laughter.

Christmas time is approaching fast, almost faster than I think it should…lol…I’m always keeping my calendar crammed full of fun things to do from about October through December.  It makes for a lot of fun.

downloadWe are having the traditional Christmas Eve dinner and opening gifts.  Again, like I said previously, you are invited and I’m sure that I would never need another present in my life, if you’d show up!!

I’m not doing much on Christmas day, probably play a bit of xbox, watch some TV (Dexter is my latest series of interest!).  I loved “Breaking Bad” and “Sons of Anarchy”, great series.  I won’t even mention how much I liked “Lost”.  However I will admit, I like watching them best on Netflix and not as they are happening, because I hate waiting a week to see what happens!  LOL, bad as getting a good book though, if you can’t turn it off and just go to bed.  Whew.  Love it.

I’ve been connecting up with a lot of family from Oregon, from my dad’s side of the family.  I found a very cool site that has our early early Bostwick history!!  I thought you’d be interested in looking at it.  It’s on  Apparently our name was “Bostock” and the group that splintered off and went to America changed their names to “Bostwick”.  It’s pretty cool – if you find the genealogy page you’ll be able to drill down to find your name!!!  My grandfather was Willis Paul.  Have fun reading the history, I know how much you love that stuff.  You’d be amazed at how many awesome and loving relatives (closely related) we have in Oregon.

20130704_123543Speaking of Oregon, have I told you how amazingly beautiful that state is?  Breathtaking!  You’d love it.  Some day we will go there and see the ocean, desert, mountains, valley and rivers!  I think it would be a lot of fun to go camping too.

Some fun news…..when I took Nanny to Oregon this past summer, she was able to see her high school best friend again after 40 years of being apart.  I was able to snap a photo of this amazing reunion which showed so much love and emotion coming from her friend.  I submitted this photo to a work-related calendar photo contest and the photo won!  It will be featured in the new 2014 calendar in the UK. I thought this was pretty cool.  I love to snap photos.  Here is the shot.


Well I must run for now, but I wanted you to know that I think about you all the time.  Truth be known, I think of all my children many times a day.  I’m so proud of all of you.  Love you tons!

You know, my birthday is the 15th, you sure are welcome to surprise me!


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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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A Similar Realization For Me

I Only Want My Family Back

Want to know something?  

I only want my family back.  

I just want to be able to see & talk to my son and be a family again.  

I want his little sister to have her brother back.

That’s all I want.  I will continue to write this blog and stay as public as I feel I need to be until this happens.  The fact that he is FORCED to disconnect from his family is not a real choice.  He’s told he will be damned to hell forever if he doesn’t.  What kind of choice is this?

Once my son is allowed to associate with me again, I really couldn’t care less about this organization or writing a blog about it.  I don’t care who gets involved and I don’t care if Jeremy stays involved, I never have.  It is his path, and I believe he has the right to his choices.

I have too many other things in my life that bring me happiness and no interest in “preaching my beliefs” to others.  I have explained it very well in a previous blog post.

But until the day I have my family back together I will continue to let people know that DISCONNECTION is FORCED BY THE CHURCH OF SCIENTOLOGY.

It’s real and it’s being practiced in the most ridiculous of ways possible!  Those on the “inside” are actually AFRAID to even be in the same building or look at someone that the church says is “bad”.

Completely ridiculous!

Some time back I read a blog post written by a “new” OT8 (which is the very highest level one can achieve in Scientology).  I agreed with it so much it felt like I had written it! 
Today I’m going to re-posting with the title linked back to his Geir’s blog.  This made me wonder how long it will be for my Jeremy to come through these steps because this is a very common path for MOST people who get involved with Scientology, and is the exact reason it is not expanding.
In fact, a LOT of folks go through the final steps silently because they fear losing friends and family to due to disconnection.  These folks just step away and pretend to be “just fine” – but they are actually SCARED to say they no longer “agree”.  That equates to Scientology CREATES fear.

From Wog to Scientologist and Back to One’s Own Path

Written by Geir Isene – Click on the title to go to his site.

  1. This Scientology thing may be interesting.  But there is a lot of bad press about this. I will give it a try.
  2. Wow!  This communication course really works.  Scientology makes a lot of sense.  The media has got this one wrong.
  3. Scientology really has got the answers!  Hubbard was a genius.  I am a Scientologist.
  4. Everything I have experienced so far is 100% right.  The rest of Scientology must surely also be right
  5. Scientology is the One True Path to Total Freedom, the only hope for Man.
  6. The Church of Scientology is saving Mankind.  David Miscavige is the most dedicated, brilliant leader there is.  I follow Command Intention to the letter.
  7. There is something wrong in the Church that I can’t quite put my finger on.
  8. The Church is not applying Hubbard’s policy correctly.  And there is out-tech.  This is a local phenomenon.
  9. There seem to be global issues with the Church.  It is not expanding even though Miscavige says it is expanding like never before.
  10. Scientology is the Only True Path, but the current management is not on that path.  It has betrayed Hubbard.
  11. I am a dedicated Scientologist, and I can no longer support a suppressive Church.  I’m out!
  12. I am an Independent Scientologist.  I practice my religion outside of the confinement of the CoS.
  13. There sure are lots of diverging viewpoints among independent Scientologists.  But I have my own unassailable trust in Hubbard.
  14. Maybe the insanities in the Church did not start with Miscavige.  Maybe, just maybe some of the problems originated with Hubbard.
  15. Hmm… maybe Hubbard wasn’t right about everything.  Maybe there actually are other valid spiritual paths.
  16. Heck, Hubbard was wrong about a lot of things.  Crap!  My stable data are experiencing an earthquake.
  17. Scientology is a tool like so many tools out there.  It’s got its good and its bad.  I will use whatever works.
  18. I don’t really care one way or the other.  I am on my own path toward my own goals.

Not exactly my journey, but close. Although some flip to the opposite and go from fanatic to anti-fanatic, I see most people go through a similar list to the above. It may serve as a useful prediction.


As I said, most people who get involved in Scientology take this same route right down to step 11 and then just simply “disappear” and stop going around.  They become impossible for Scientology to reach by phone etc.  These folks number in the thousands and if every single one of them would come forward, on a public level, I think it would be tougher for the organization to label all of them as “suppressives”!

Don’t you think there is power in numbers?

But you know it won’t happen because the brainwashing is extremely heavy and a lot of the people who make it to step 11 are still living in fear.  They are afraid of reading anything “negative”.  You would never believe how many of them are actually SCARED to even read anything on the internet about Scientology because they are conditioned to believe that reading “anti-Scientology” anything could actually restimulate their “OT Case” and kill them!

I am not even teasing!  They are told that there are certain things they could run into on the net that could kill them…….it’s so sad because even those who are telling them this, probably BELIEVE it themselves!


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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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Things That Are Happening – Here’s the News


Your nephew, Blaine Harmon

Jeremy my son, I miss you wildly!  

I want to hug you, talk to you and share your life with you!  Thanksgiving and Christmas are just around the corner, you and Sarah are cordially invited over!  We are having dinner & gifts Christmas Eve (night) then games and fun!  I can’t even begin to tell you how much it would mean to me for the both of you to come.

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated you on much, but that certainly doesn’t mean that a lot isn’t going on.  I keep myself busy and happy as a bug-in-a-rug, most the time!

I love life!  I hope you do too.  I hope you’re very happy in what is happening in your life.

How does it feel to be, “Uncle Jeremy”?


Blaine Harmon, your nephew


Ashton Harmon

Blaine, your nephew is getting cuter by the minute!  This little guy has an amazing personality and is actually as much fun to be around as his big brother, Ashton!  Do you even remember being around Ashton?  Well, like it or not, lol, you are Uncle Jeremy.  How does it feel?  How I wish you were part of their lives.  I hope you have others in your life to take the place of your blood family.


Travis and Brittany are doing fantastic.  He is out in Oklahoma still running a hoe in pipeline.  He has said a few times he could get you work out there, all the work you’d ever want, upwards of good money if you’re willing to travel!  Just remember that in case you ever feel the time’s right to return to your family.  We are all here, willing and able to help you.

Brittany is pregnant with their 2nd child and we’re told it will be a boy, destined to arrive on Travis’ birthday!  That has to be exciting!  You should see how happy they are as a family, it just makes my world when they come and bring the kids!  We don’t get to see Ash as often because he is in school and can’t just get out easily.  He is “blow your mind” amazing!  I love him to death and I know you’d be so impressed with him.  He’s a tiny thing, I’d say he probably doesn’t weigh more than 40 lbs.

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Your sister is doing well.  She is a front desk supervisor in a major (very nice) hotel chain.  She has the cutest cat you’ve ever seen, calls him “Jack”!  He is the sweetest thing.  LOL, makes me think of Saber.  He is still a bit cranky with strangers, but not near as bad as he used to be.  We have a lot of things happening around our BIG house and he has started accepting there are more humans than just Jim and I.


Vince & Heather

Your sister has moved out into her own small loft apartment and has been making it go right since around June this year.  She loves living with her boyfriend, Vince.  Who knows, they might get married one of these days, too.  It would seem that they are doing really well.

Goofy pic of me!

Goofy pic of me!

I’ve been doing well, as I said I’m one of the happiest people I know!  My sadness that surrounds the situation of you shunning us doesn’t consume my life, thank God.

My learning, expanding and enlightenment has continued and I’m in a very good and stable place in my life – ready for anything.  I don’t fear death in the least and I’m completely sure that you and I will have a good chuckle some day on the other side about all this stuff.  Course, I honestly hope we don’t have to wait that long.  I want to have all my family around me, bringing the grandkids over, having Christmas & Thanksgiving traditions that we start with our own family.  That’s what I hope for!


My new massage chair!

I have a new toy at home.  Actually it isn’t really a “toy” but I pretend it is.  This chair is helping me with my back pain.  The back pain is the most frustrating part of my life these days as I just can’t seem to get it to stop hurting and I try to avoid taking pain medication as often as I can.  I will tell you that this chair makes me feel able to move my body after I’ve sat in it for 30 minutes!  You’d love it.  I keep it hidden away because it’s preciously important to me.

We have plenty of room for you and Sarah to come over and have a good time, spend the night and all.  With it being just Nanny, Jim and I, our 4-bedroom house serves as room for company to come and spend the night in a comfortable room.  I changed Heather’s old room into a guest room and used all her 8th art work as the theme!!!  LOL, she had changed the paint on one of the walls and I just went with it.  I didn’t really want to spend a lot on it, just make it comfortable and use the stuff we already had around here.

Here are a few shots I took as I was decorating the two rooms.  We have that “8th Grade Art” room that was Heather’s with a double bed in it, then there’s the “black & white” room with a double bed and decorated now in Beatles stuff (here’s a shot of it while I was still mid decorating) then there’s the twin sized room all done in Coca Cola stuff. It’s cute as hell!  Funniest thing, when Heather moved out we were always getting confused on which room was which when I totally moved all the stuff around, so we did something really funny and put room numbers on the doors in golden fancy writing – and put “restroom” on the bathroom.  The master bedroom has a sign that says “manager”.  We are silly, I know!  So now we refer to the rooms as “201”, “202” and “203”!

PicMonkey Collage

Here’s also a couple shots from our front room and living room.  I have a lot more decorating to do as I make final decisions on how I want the rooms to look.  (God, you know I always take 2-3 years to get something decorated like I want it).  But hey, if you like to play xbox or other type video games, we now have the 42″ LCD in the front room (two bottom right hand pics), tucked away on the wall so anyone who wants to play games can do it while we watch TV in the living room (bottom left pic) on the new 65″ LED!!  Yep, that was mine and Jim’s big gift this year.  I’m completely amazed by how big and real the picture looks.  It makes watching a movie in your living an experience.  I certainly did want the 80″, but that might be a couple years down the road before we upgrade to one that size (when the prices come down).  Just saying I think you’d have a good time coming over.  We keep the two refrigerators stocked and the walk-in pantry has snacks you’d love!

I’d love to share more pictures with you, but I think it could get crazy!  I love photos and have a bunch of them.  Jeremy we’re all doing super well.  Like I said, spiritually & emotionally I’m completely stable and doing awesome.  It seems that I’m also able to manifest just about anything I want in my life – except you!  LOL, I’m still working on that one as we speak.

Time is Ticking

1372226_10151874447339411_232181301_oI never told you how close you came to losing your grandma (Nanny).  On September 27th she had a stroke and spent 4.5 days in the hospital.  This was caused by her uncontrolled high blood pressure that has just never been remedied in all these years.  She has taken many different alternative health routes, auditing through NED and a lot of medications.  I think we might finally have it under control for the first time in years!

We’re thankful she is still with us, because I honestly can’t imagine her dying, believing you absolutely didn’t give a damn about anyone in your family except yourself.  Whether that is true or not, how do you expect her to feel otherwise? As far as that goes, how about Heather?  I’m not as worried about me, but those two!


Nanny being funny!

Here is a more recent picture of her, since coming out of the hospital.  I can tell you that she looks the same, but isn’t quite “the same”.  Her personality has changed, so at this point, you will never have the grandma you used to know.

Jeremy, she pulled out of it this time. There will come a day that she will be leaving us.  I know we believe that will be 20 years from now, but nobody knows how long they have!



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Mike Rinder wrote an article that shows how there is a double standard in Scientology with regards to who is forced to disconnect and who isn’t – that I thought you’d be interested in reading.  It’s a viewpoint for sure, considering you were forced to disconnect from your entire family (as were others) however if you’re a particular celebrity, you don’t have to.  Who is making these rules up, Jeremy?  Mike says, “But I would guess the “Tom Cruise Syndrome” is going to come into play. No action will be taken. It will be treated as a “special circumstance” because it would create a media frenzy and “black PR.”  It’s why no disconnection is enforced for Tom from Kate or Nicole…” Read the whole article below.


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Double Standard, Not Everyone Is Forced to Di$connect!
(Story from Mike Rinder’s site, click here for the original article)

Now that Leah Remini is officially a Special Person (see Tony Ortega’s blog this morning), the big question becomes whether Miscavige is going to attempt to enforce the oft-employed disconnection card with Jennifer Lopez.

Everyone knows JLo and Leah are BFFs. They were hanging at JLo’s party last nite and featured on the People Mag site (and everywhere else).

It is also common knowledge that JLo’s father is a Scientologist.

So, what is the guy who proclaims to be the enforcer of “standard tech” to do? Would eh dare risk trying to force J Lo to choose between her dad and Leah?  She IS after all, connected to an officially declared Special Person and publicly supporting her. That makes her guilty of a “Suppressive Act”.  And thus her father should be getting the same treatment as the peons are subjected to: “Get your daughter to disconnect from the SP or you will be declared guilty of a Suppressive Act and be declared too.”

This EXACT scenario has happened with HUNDREDS of people in just the last year.

But I would guess the “Tom Cruise Syndrome” is going to come into play. No action will be taken. It will be treated as a “special circumstance” because it would create a media frenzy and “black PR.”  It’s why no disconnection is enforced for Tom from Kate or Nicole…

Amazing how the “deeply held religious beliefs” and “upholding of standard tech” melts in the face of media scrutiny. Those lives and families of the “nobodies” that are destroyed mean nothing because they don’t get media attention.

It’s a sickening double standard.

PS: Welcome Leah to the ranks of Special Persons – goldenrod is the new black. :)

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Jeremy do you have to keep your head in video games to escape the reality that you are being denied your family? What in the world are you doing to cope with this?  I guess it was worth it, if the St. Louis Org has now expanded since us four “SPs” were gotten off the lines!


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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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October 24, 2010 – Three Long Years Since We’ve Seen You

Today marks exactly 3 years since I’ve seen you.
I hope you know that I have never stopped loving you,
no matter how much this shunning hurts me.

We miss you so very much!  Heather has lost both you and her dad and don’t think for one minute that this doesn’t bother her.

I read something the other day on the internet and it’s important enough to share with you.

Your actions are what make you a better person,
not your beliefs …
Your actions define who you really are!

Shunning is really only a cruel form of emotional (and spiritual) control.
Groups practice it because it’s easy to control people with fear.
No one should have to choose between their family and their beliefs!

Continuing to practice this shunning only makes you look bad.  I wish you could see this.  The Church of Scientology is not really growing Jeremy, you’re being lied to in the cruelest way.  Look, it’s been three years since we were declared “evil” how much has your local church grown?

Pete Pegano & Martha Conway
Left Three Years Ago

Did you know that Pete Pegano & Martha Conway – two of your most recent OT 8’s – walked away THREE years ago stating, “can you believe we were in a cult?”

When asked about the L’s and the OT levels, they said it was a scam.  They were finally declared “suppressive people” just this past November, but only after the Church of Scientology could not get them “recovered”.

Think about this.  You were probably told they were “off the rails”, “out-ethics” or other such THOUGHT STOPPERS such as “they have other fish to fry” or my favorite, “they went PTS”.  This is very interesting, given that they had reached the highest spiritual level of Scientology (called Truth Revealed), including the L’s Rundowns — and suddenly they went “off the rails”?

Think my son, use your common sense.  Do you suppose they realized what was really going on and that they had not really achieved what the Church of Scientology promised and that their friends felt the same way?

If you only knew.  I’m sure you just can’t imagine how many OT 8’s leave – then they get declared suppressive.  Why would the result of those hitting OT 8 be a suppressive declare if the tech works?

How does this make logical sense to you, Jeremy?  In your own mind, how does it make sense?  If you can’t make sense of it and need to ask someone in the church to explain it, you’ll get twisted truth, left out time & sequence with pieces of policy that seems to answer it for you – if you don’t think about it.

Why do you get these answers from the church?  Well, here’s one thing LRH says, “If attacked on some vulnerable point by anyone or anything or any organization, always find or manufacture enough threat against them to cause them to sue for peace.”  – L. Ron Hubbard, Hubbard Communications Office Policy Letter, 15 August 1960, Dept. of Govt. Affairs

Jeremy, in the name of Scientology Ethics you’ve seriously hurt those who love you the most.  Sadly you believe that your spiritual freedom depends upon leaving your entire “evil” family behind and somehow this makes sense to you.

Why are you closing your eyes and choosing to just believe what they tell you?  Have you ever heard LRH said, “Look, don’t listen” when it comes to stats?

Statistics – Written by Jefferson Hawkins

WRITTEN IN AUGUST 2009  Click here to read the article on his site.

Well, guess what? The actual statistics of Scientology are not available. You can’t find them anywhere. They are “confidential.”  At events, we are told that there is “unprecedented expansion.” We are smothered with hyperbole: “We are meeting demands for frontline LRH technology every 3 seconds.” “A course completion every 6 minutes.” “A training explosion 50 times greater than anything in history.” And so on. But what does all this mean? A statistic, LRH reminds us, is “a number or amount compared to an earlier number or amount of the same thing.” Used to be, they’d show graphs at events. With actual numbers and dates on them. Not any more.

The (a) recent Freedom Magazine claimed that “Number of individuals completing Dianetics and Scientology counseling and courses doubled in the past two years.” But no actual figures given. “Total number of counseling hours doubled in the past decade.” No figures. “Total number of people newly introduced to Scientology and starting on training or counseling doubled in the past five years.” Also no actual figures.

As I pointed out in another post, here is a sample graph that has “doubled in the last five years.” Yet the stat is crashing. So you can see that such claims are meaningless where you don’t deal in actual figures and actual long term graphs.

Sample Graph

LRH tells us to “look, don’t listen.” Even if you don’t have the actual numbers, you can observe.

Your local org – how many people are in the org? How many on course? How many in Div 6? Are there any more people in the Org than there were 10 years ago? 20 years ago? Or are there less? And don’t think your org is the exception, and “everyone else” is booming.

What about events? Are there more people now at events than there were 10 years ago? You would think that if Scientology had been experiencing “unprecedented expansion” for the last 10 years, they would need bigger and bigger event venues. But the LA Events are still at the Shrine, as they were 20 years ago. And they have trouble filling that. So where is this expansion?

They claim that 9,523 Scientologists live in the Tampa Bay area, along with 1,500 Church staff. Why, then, do they hold events in Ruth Eckerd Hall which, according to its own website, “comfortably seats 2,180 for concerts, recitals, plays and special events.”

The Church claims 8 million, 10 million or even 20 million members (depending on who is talking). Well, where are these people? Count up the number of people active at your org, multiply by the number of orgs (140), and see if you get anywhere close to that number.

According to a direct inquiry to the researchers at ARIS (American Religious Identification Survey), they estimate a  total of 25,000 Scientologists in the US.

According to a former Int Base marketing staff member: “IAS Membership internationally was about 40,000. The event attendance internationally was about 30,000 on a decent event, and had gone as low as 20,000 – 25,000. The “Bodies in the Shop” figure (which is supposed to measure the number of people in orgs that week for service, including Div 6 services) was about 16,000 internationally. These figures are four years old. My own estimate of the number of Scientologists internationally, based on these and other figures I knew of at the Int Base, is under 40,000.”

According to an article by David Miscavige’s former #2, Marty Rathbun, “Since securing his position of power, the statistics of Scientology have steadily decreased in spite of Miscavige’s public proclamations to the contrary.”

In the recent 80-page Freedom Magazine put out by David Miscavige, they claimed “8,071 Scientology Churches, Missions and groups”

I wrote another post about my examination of this information, but I’ll repeat the information here as well.

I got curious as to where all these “Churches, Missions and groups” are.  You might have noticed that the Church no longer lists Org addresses in the back of the books. They used to list all Org and Mission addresses, but they stopped doing that. They just refer you to their website, with its nifty Scientology Org and Mission locator. You cannot find a complete org and mission list on the website, just this locator. So, in order to find out how many Orgs and Missions there are, you have to spend hours going through the locator, country by country.

Which I did.

Here’s my count: 140 Orgs, 342 Missions. I don’t vouch for its complete accuracy, but it’s pretty close. That’s a far cry from 8,071. Here’s what the breakdown looks like:


I went back and checked my copy of What is Scientology, from 1998, which dates from a time when they still published org and missions address lists. The count, from that list, is 143 Orgs, 230 Missions. So the number or Orgs is virtually the same. Sure, there have been a few new Orgs: Harlem,  CC Nashville. But there have also been Orgs that have quietly disappeared: CC Portland, Copenhagen Org, Puerto Rico (downgraded to a Mission). So no real expansion there.

Missions have apparently increased by 112.  Okay, fair enough, but nowhere near 8,000. And missions, as one reader pointed out, are nothing like they used to be. Missions used to have 25 or 30 staff or more, rivaling the size of Orgs. Today’s missions are likely to be a couple of guys in a house, open maybe a few nights a week.

The Freedom Magazine tells us: “In just the last five years, the Church has literally doubled in size, from 4,000 Churches, Missions and groups in 2004 to over 8,000 in 2009 in 165 nations, doubled since 2004.”

So it’s a bit, shall we say, misleading, to talk about an expansion of “Orgs, Missions and Groups.” The claimed expansion has been, other than 112 Missions added in the last 10 years, entirelygroups. Over 7,500 of them.  Well, a legitimate question is, where are they?

I spent some time on the internet looking for them. A search for “Scientology Group” and “Dianetics Group” didn’t find anything (although I found a lot of Freezone groups). I spent some time with Google Maps, searching for any addresses connected to Dianetics or Scientology. I only got Orgs and Missions. I searched for any blogs connected to Scientology groups. Well, I couldn’t find them. One would think that if there were 7,500 Dianetics or Scientology groups, they would actually show up somewhere.

If they exist.

The bottom line is, where is all this “expansion” that management talks about? Where are these millions of Scientologists and thousands of groups? Why can’t we see them? Why isn’t event attendance in the hundreds of thousands? Why aren’t orgs full of people?  Maybe you can’t see all that expansion because it doesn’t exist. And maybe, just maybe, behind the glitter and façade and brags, Scientology is actually getting smaller under current management.

So when it comes to reviewing the statistics of David Miscavige’s Brave New Scientology, don’t just accept the PR. Look, don’t listen. Examine, probe, fact-check.

So have another look at that Doubt Formula.

Maybe today’s Brave New Scientology is not a group you want to be part of.


I’m so sorry Jeremy.  Your life is being twisted by one of the ugliest of lies on this planet.  The only thing really growing in Scientology are those who are waking up to the lies, deception and massive pain that has been caused to thousands of families across the planet and are leaving in droves.

“It is you who choose your future, it is you who holds firmly to your goals or lets them slip. . . .

. . .“When all is said it is you who will be with yourself at the end.

“And it is you who will ask yourself, did I do right or did I do wrong?

“And the state you find yourself in will be the answer.” – LRH

“THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN CONTROL PEOPLE IS TO LIE TO THEM. You can write that down in your book in great big letters. The only way you can control anybody is to lie to them.” — – L. Ron Hubbard, “Off the Time Track,” lecture of June 1952, excerpted in JOURNAL OF SCIENTOLOGY issue 18-G, reprinted in TECHNICAL VOLUMES OF DIANETICS & SCIENTOLOGY, vol. 1, p. 418



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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

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AFFORDABLE Insurance Available for Jeremy

Hi Jeremy!!  I haven’t written in a long while, but it certainly doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking of you.

First and foremost on my mind is this new healthcare law.  I understand you’re required to carry health insurance and if you don’t have it then you can be charged a fairly substantial penalty, which seems affordable this first year but get’s completely un-affordable the subsequent years.

I want you to know that you can EASILY be added to my insurance here at work and it would only cost you about $100 a month.  Of course, we’d have to speak to each other in order to accomplish this!

—– I believe your dictating authority would realize it might be the “greatest good for the greatest number of your dynamics” to do this.

Jeremy, please soon realize that you are NOT in violation of L. Ron Hubbard’s Scientology policies if you happen to look at me (see me), speak to me when necessary/of importance or otherwise acknowledge my existence — that you pretend I’m dead happens to be a HUGE MU (misunderstood word) that’s prevalent within the confines of your religion.  It’s also the single biggest thing that Scientologists are doing (against LRH’s better judgement) that is massively harming public opinion of Scientology.   

With that said, I know that you’re NOT ALLOWED to “associate” with me, as I’m branded as evil, so you couldn’t hang out, come for Christmas, birthdays or BBQ’s (funerals are not included in this).  However, in all fairness and on that note, do a little research online and you’ll find that the Church of Scientology continues to claim that they do not practice disconnection……meaning you don’t really have to disconnect.

I dreamed of you so vividly last night.  I was able to hug you big when you came through my front door.  It was weird because I could tell you thought it was wrong.

What in the hell has this Earth come to?  Where is true humanity?

I will write later about how we almost lost Nanny recently.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

What Would Ellen Maher-Forney Do?

You’ve heard that “Jim & Meshell Little are St. Louis Org’s biggest SPs”?  Really?  Isn’t that interesting?

Tell me what mother would just quietly walk away and go about her life after a “church” required her child to pretend she and the rest of the family never existed?  (Jeremy you were ONLY 19-years old!)

EllenForneySo let’s play this out.
Suppose Ellen Maher-Forney (who is St. Louis Org’s OSA person) finally found her personal integrity…

  • Let’s assume she stopped “being reasonable” and “looking the other way”.

  • Let’s assume she had written hundreds of internal reports of things that should NOT be, that were never handled, locally or from management.

  • Let’s assume she was able to objectively see the whole picture and realized that expansion is not really happening – anywhere!

  • Let’s assume she realized current Scientology tech has strayed so far that it wasn’t even able to save the marriage of her son, Kevin and Eve (Hanses).

  • Let’s assume she realized that “management” was telling her what she should think about certain people, things & situations and she was only getting one side of the story.

  • Let’s assume she actually did the same research that the HUNDREDS of us (who have walked away since 2008) have done.

  • Let’s assume she actually looked at the stats of  OTs and realized the incredible ratio of them who’ve died of cancer, killed themselves or are now declared SPs.

  • Let’s assume she realized that atrocities are being carried out in the name of “Scientology” and thousands are actually truly being wronged in the name of L. Ron Hubbard.

  • Let’s assume she realized that the “Creed of Scientology” was not being applied, tech was being misapplied and planet-wide Scientology was off the rails.

  • Let’s assume she now easily can see that the current church is all about the money, power and recognition (David Miscavige’s personal game).

  • Let’s assume she tried to help but now realizes there is nothing going to change the devastating path that the current Church of Scientology is on.

  • Let’s assume she realized that she would be an accessory to these crimes to continue to turn a deaf ear to the whole out-ethics scene.

  • Let’s assume that after her thorough and objective research she easily sees that in the name of HELP, Scientology is destroying families.

  • Let’s assume she realized that there’s a huge sinister corruption inside, and since nobody did anything about this years ago, it’s now too late!

  • Let’s assume she realized that she HAD to start applying LRH’s “Personal Integrity” tech and decided she must disconnect from what this church has become and withdraw her support.

  • Let’s assume she realized that the only chance Scientology has is for the members to stop supporting the current corrupt organization and leave.  LRH talks about what to do about corrupt government (which Scientology International Mgmt is the governing body over Scientology) – he says WITHDRAW YOUR SUPPORT.

Now, let’s draw this out a bit and see that her children (Kevin & Julie) could not agree with her, since they are basically “newer” Scientologists.  It seems only her husband is in agreement with her, because the both of them have had 15-20 more years of experience inside the organization (and they’ve heard it all before) and are in a better position to evaluate the situation.

Well, at this point, she has a choice.  She can choose to throw away her personal integrity and just allow the injustices, out-tech and massive out-ethics to continue.  Or, she can choose to make a stand to save Scientology!   She realizes she will be unjustly declared an SP (like all those who have stood up), but she feels she must stand up for what LRH created – withdraw her support from the corrupt organization and walk away.

Her children will be forced to disconnect from her.

No matter how badly she misses them, they will not call her, talk to her or even look at her.

No matter how much it hurts, she will not be able to find out how her children are, nobody will tell her.

When her son gets re-married, she will not be part of that joyous day (or the wedding).

When her daughter gets pregnant and has a baby she will not be able to be there, won’t be able to be part of that grand baby’s life, nor will she ever be known to any of her grandchildren.

If her son is ever in a bad accident and goes to the hospital she will not be allowed in to see him.

If her son dies, she will not be allowed to see his body nor attend the memorial.

If her daughter develops cancer, like Robin Hanses, she would not be able to help her or be with her to offer comfort.

If her husband, Steve, develops a brain tumor and is dying, her children will not be there for his last months of his life on Earth, nor will any of them attend the funeral.

Excuse me Jeremy (and Sarah) –
do you honestly believe that Ellen
would just tuck her tail between her legs
and quietly walk off into the sunset?


Do you think she would be speaking out about the atrocities and wrongness of forced disconnections?

Do you honestly think ANY mom would just let her child(ren) be taken away from her without “kicking and screaming”?  If we mom’s can’t get at slight gentle cause over this massive suppression, I’m sure we would not be able to make it.

Speaking out is SLIGHT GENTLE CAUSE over the suppression and evil that is being done to families!  Actually, you both should have been able to ensure you had all the facts before you were forced to choose sides!  You only had corporate Scientology’s side of the story.

Read this story at the risk of realizing that the level of corruption is sickening these days in this “church” and it has become a greedy evil entity that destroys families for the good of one man.

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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

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