Archive for June, 2014

We Were In a Tornado!

SnapShotToday was a scary day!  Well, I guess technically yesterday was, but I’m still awake and now it’s after midnight.

Your nanny and I were caught in a small tornado while driving home from Theis Farm this afternoon!  See, just as we were leaving to head home the radio broadcasted a tornado warning for St. Charles county and was telling how it was close to where we live, and headed toward where we were.

Here we were out in the bottoms with nothing but farm fields all around us and I was thinking that it was not safe out in the open like that (lol, probably would have been safer though).  I called Jim and he advised that we should probably not come home yet and said the wind was furious at the house, but in all my wisdom I decided we should at least get on Page extension and head west toward home and get under an overpass for protection.

The drive was good for quite a ways, and I stayed on the phone with Jim (hands free, of course) as we headed west.  He said he was taking cover in the basement because of the tornado warning and said the wind was horrible.  I said “wow, there’s zero wind here, absolutely none!”  Jim mentioned to me that it was not a good sign that there was no wind and I knew he was right but it just seemed like maybe the tornado had gone the other direction so I keep heading onward.

Your nanny and I seemed to think the worst of the storm was quite a ways to our left because it looked horribly black that direction and just seemed like heavy rain ahead of us so we were not overly concerned.  Then the rains from hell started hitting us and I couldn’t see 10 feet in front of us!  The rain had just eased up, like almost quit, just as we got on the overpass at Jungermann.  That’s when I looked about 3 car lengths straight ahead of us and said to nanny, “oh my god mom, those clouds are coming all the way down to the road up there!” and no sooner had I said it and we were smack dab in the middle of a tornado!!  We saw debris swirling in the air and heard the high pitch sound of the wind and the vehicle started feeling like we were on some ice.

I was freaking out and not sure what I should do.  Jim was on the phone with me yelling to me to go south of 94….and I was yelling back to him, “Jim, we are IN THE TORNADO NOW” and he just kept telling me to get off of 94 and get south of it.  Of course, there was no exit anywhere close!

We felt stuff hitting the car and it was so loud around us – but not like a train, more like high pitched wind.  Since we were up high on a tall overpass, I didn’t know where to go for safety.  I thought of pulling over next to the concrete wall of the bridge and stopping, but then I immediately worried that it might just lift us up and flip us over to the road below!  Course, if it were going to do that it would have already done it because it was on us fast and furious and then it was gone.  I’d say it was gone in about 30 seconds and we could tell we were on the other side of it.  All the other cars around me seemed to be feeling the same freak out that I had, with not being sure what to do.

 

After we got through the storm we took this picture of the area we came through.

After we got through the storm we took this picture of the area we came through.

When we got a little further down the road the sky was blue!!!!  It was super weird.

We managed to get home, even though I was shaking harder than I had ever trembled before.  Jim thought that we had not actually been in the tornado, but that it was only the start of one, but the TV started giving reports of tornado damage and there were more warnings being issued as that tornado kept heading northeast.

After about 30 minutes nanny and I headed out again, this time to go see if there had been any damage in the area where the tornado came down on us and when we saw what it did after it went through us, we started shaking all over again!  It had went over to the shopping center where the 24 Hour Fitness Center was and tore the crap out of the front of the building!

24 Hour Fitness at Jungerman - just off the highway from where we were.

24 Hour Fitness at Jungermann – just off the highway from where we were.

We went ahead and got out to take pictures feeling freaked completely out that nothing bad had happened to us.  There were a lot of news stations there reporting and I was interviewed by Fox2Now and told them the story of what happened, then a lady from the Post Dispatch interviewed us.  I was shaking again, almost as bad as when we drove through it, because we could see how lucky we really were.

Here is a video we took when we drove back to the area.

You know Jeremy, it’s things like this that make this disconnection thing even more evil.  We are your family and families need each other when things are bad.  What if it would have been a bad deal and we had been hurt or even worse?  Do you think about this?  What do you think?  I suppose you’d not know for a long time, if ever – even if I died!  Even if you read this blog, you’d just think I was not posting much lately, like usual.

Do you ever consider how you’d feel if you later found out that I had been dead for 3 years or something?  You know that there would probably not be anyone who would try to inform you, because truthfully I’m the only one who tries to maintain this line of communication.  Jim thinks you don’t deserve the amount of love I have for you because of what you’ve done to me, so he sure wouldn’t try to get word to you, and Travis & Heather feel nearly the same.  They can’t tolerate the pain that I’m going through and feel the blame lies equally with you as with Scientology.

Jeremy, I tell them that it all boils down to Scientology’s forced disconnection policy because if it weren’t for that you would never have done this.  I try to get them to see that you are surrounded by people who tell you that your family are very bad people because we speak against the Church of Scientology – and you have to be believing them!

For the life of me, I do not understand how you could not just see through this hideous labeling of people who disagree.  You know how much your family loves you and surely you’re smart enough to know that we didn’t just turn “evil” overnight.  What we actually did, and all that we did, was disagree with the church and now they want us silenced and that is all it boils down to, meaning they didn’t want us to spread our opinions and doubt to you or others who are still practicing Scientology.

It’s been 3 years, 7 months, 14 days, 7 hours and 4 minutes since you last spoke to me.  Doesn’t it amaze you that I have not changed my mind and “came to my senses” (as they call it)?  Weren’t you taught that if you didn’t disconnect I would never be saved but that by disconnecting you would “save” me?  Do you believe that?

I know it turned out fine this time and nanny and I are safe – but there might come a day that it isn’t this happy ending and you’ll regret disconnecting from your loving blood family, more than ever and it will be too late.

 

20140607_1602142

Here is a link to the short video I took when Nanny and I went back.  (If you’re viewing this post on your phone, the video doesn’t seem to show up, so use this link).   Click here to go to YouTube.

 

 

*********

Jeremy, I love you, miss you and I want you in our life.  I have nothing against you being in Scientology, but as long as you are forced to stay disconnected from me and your family – I will continue to speak out.  Likewise, if Scientology stops abusing the “disconnection policy” I will never breathe another word regarding Scientology, one way or another.

Click here to get my contact information.

Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

20140607_144700

 

 

 

As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.  Just use my encrypted Hushmail email address if you are worried.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

Advertisements

Went to a Wedding

Wow, I haven’t written much lately, but that has absolutely nothing to do with how often I think of Jeremy, which is a daily thing.  The good news (or maybe it isn’t so good, shrug) is that I no longer have nightly dreams of Jeremy coming to see me and giving me hugs and love.

This weekend I attended the wedding of an old friend, Chris Hays.  Chris and Amanda’s wedding was beautiful yet I experienced enormous sadness remembering that I had been left out of Jeremy’s & Sarah’s wedding in February.  It’s horrible that my Jeremy had none of his family at his own wedding, so his wedding portraits will all be void of any family members and even his own mother – regardless of how much I love him.

Anyway, there was a boy about Jeremy’s age in attendance at this wedding yesterday who resembled my Jeremy so much I couldn’t stop staring at him!  He sat in my direct view of watching the wedding and I found myself unable to keep my eyes off him.  It was beginning to be awkward when he would look my direction and I was always looking at him, little did he know how fascinated I was with just watching him.  There I was, watching all his mannerisms and could swear I was looking at my son.  I felt so much sadness.  I just wanted to go hug this boy yet I knew I couldn’t do that – good grief – it would just be weird for him!  LOL.  I felt the disconnection pain even more because it was than pain of wanting to hug my son and can’t – even if it’s just a stranger who looks like him.

I observed this young man, and even though I don’t know a thing about him, he seemed to carry that same “troubled soul” that Jeremy always had.  You can’t imagine how badly I wanted to take him under my wing and have a chance to make a difference in his life.

I did end up speaking to him and showed him photos of Jeremy and he also saw the uncanny resemblance.  I told him about Scientology’s disconnection and that Jeremy now shuns me – later I told him I would adopt him if he needed another family and had a bit of conversation with him.  Bless his heart, overall I think I just creeped him out and he just thought I was super strange.

I now feel a bit obsessive about wishing there could be some type of “adoptive family” relationship created and it is probably not an option because, like I said, I think I freaked him out and he just thinks I’m a weird “old” lady.  Sad. I think our family has a lot of love to share and I also think I’m a pretty good mom – even though Jeremy bailed on me.

I wish my Jeremy would wake up.

1932300_690108127713002_140744472_n

 

*********

Jeremy, I love you, miss you and I want you in our life.  I have nothing against you being in Scientology, but as long as you are forced to stay disconnected from me and your family – I will continue to speak out.  Likewise, if Scientology stops abusing the “disconnection policy” I will never breathe another word regarding Scientology, one way or another.

Click here to get my contact information.

Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little

Photo2ab

As usual, I want you to know, and anyone else choosing to call or email me – you are SAFE with me.  I’m not being followed, bugged or otherwise tracked and I will NEVER share your identity or information.  I assure you that nobody will know that you talked to me.   I know folks need someone to talk to when their stable data starts to crumble.

If you’re new to my blog please click here to see why I write this blog. 

 

%d bloggers like this: