October 24, 2010 – Three Long Years Since We’ve Seen You

Today marks exactly 3 years since I’ve seen you.
I hope you know that I have never stopped loving you,
no matter how much this shunning hurts me.

We miss you so very much!  Heather has lost both you and her dad and don’t think for one minute that this doesn’t bother her.

I read something the other day on the internet and it’s important enough to share with you.

Your actions are what make you a better person,
not your beliefs …
Your actions define who you really are!

Shunning is really only a cruel form of emotional (and spiritual) control.
Groups practice it because it’s easy to control people with fear.
No one should have to choose between their family and their beliefs!

Continuing to practice this shunning only makes you look bad.  I wish you could see this.  The Church of Scientology is not really growing Jeremy, you’re being lied to in the cruelest way.  Look, it’s been three years since we were declared “evil” how much has your local church grown?

Pete Pegano & Martha Conway
Left Three Years Ago

Did you know that Pete Pegano & Martha Conway – two of your most recent OT 8’s – walked away THREE years ago stating, “can you believe we were in a cult?”

When asked about the L’s and the OT levels, they said it was a scam.  They were finally declared “suppressive people” just this past November, but only after the Church of Scientology could not get them “recovered”.

Think about this.  You were probably told they were “off the rails”, “out-ethics” or other such THOUGHT STOPPERS such as “they have other fish to fry” or my favorite, “they went PTS”.  This is very interesting, given that they had reached the highest spiritual level of Scientology (called Truth Revealed), including the L’s Rundowns — and suddenly they went “off the rails”?

Think my son, use your common sense.  Do you suppose they realized what was really going on and that they had not really achieved what the Church of Scientology promised and that their friends felt the same way?

If you only knew.  I’m sure you just can’t imagine how many OT 8’s leave – then they get declared suppressive.  Why would the result of those hitting OT 8 be a suppressive declare if the tech works?

How does this make logical sense to you, Jeremy?  In your own mind, how does it make sense?  If you can’t make sense of it and need to ask someone in the church to explain it, you’ll get twisted truth, left out time & sequence with pieces of policy that seems to answer it for you – if you don’t think about it.

Why do you get these answers from the church?  Well, here’s one thing LRH says, “If attacked on some vulnerable point by anyone or anything or any organization, always find or manufacture enough threat against them to cause them to sue for peace.”  – L. Ron Hubbard, Hubbard Communications Office Policy Letter, 15 August 1960, Dept. of Govt. Affairs

Jeremy, in the name of Scientology Ethics you’ve seriously hurt those who love you the most.  Sadly you believe that your spiritual freedom depends upon leaving your entire “evil” family behind and somehow this makes sense to you.

Why are you closing your eyes and choosing to just believe what they tell you?  Have you ever heard LRH said, “Look, don’t listen” when it comes to stats?

Statistics – Written by Jefferson Hawkins

WRITTEN IN AUGUST 2009  Click here to read the article on his site.

Well, guess what? The actual statistics of Scientology are not available. You can’t find them anywhere. They are “confidential.”  At events, we are told that there is “unprecedented expansion.” We are smothered with hyperbole: “We are meeting demands for frontline LRH technology every 3 seconds.” “A course completion every 6 minutes.” “A training explosion 50 times greater than anything in history.” And so on. But what does all this mean? A statistic, LRH reminds us, is “a number or amount compared to an earlier number or amount of the same thing.” Used to be, they’d show graphs at events. With actual numbers and dates on them. Not any more.

The (a) recent Freedom Magazine claimed that “Number of individuals completing Dianetics and Scientology counseling and courses doubled in the past two years.” But no actual figures given. “Total number of counseling hours doubled in the past decade.” No figures. “Total number of people newly introduced to Scientology and starting on training or counseling doubled in the past five years.” Also no actual figures.

As I pointed out in another post, here is a sample graph that has “doubled in the last five years.” Yet the stat is crashing. So you can see that such claims are meaningless where you don’t deal in actual figures and actual long term graphs.

Sample Graph

LRH tells us to “look, don’t listen.” Even if you don’t have the actual numbers, you can observe.

Your local org – how many people are in the org? How many on course? How many in Div 6? Are there any more people in the Org than there were 10 years ago? 20 years ago? Or are there less? And don’t think your org is the exception, and “everyone else” is booming.

What about events? Are there more people now at events than there were 10 years ago? You would think that if Scientology had been experiencing “unprecedented expansion” for the last 10 years, they would need bigger and bigger event venues. But the LA Events are still at the Shrine, as they were 20 years ago. And they have trouble filling that. So where is this expansion?

They claim that 9,523 Scientologists live in the Tampa Bay area, along with 1,500 Church staff. Why, then, do they hold events in Ruth Eckerd Hall which, according to its own website, “comfortably seats 2,180 for concerts, recitals, plays and special events.”

The Church claims 8 million, 10 million or even 20 million members (depending on who is talking). Well, where are these people? Count up the number of people active at your org, multiply by the number of orgs (140), and see if you get anywhere close to that number.

According to a direct inquiry to the researchers at ARIS (American Religious Identification Survey), they estimate a  total of 25,000 Scientologists in the US.

According to a former Int Base marketing staff member: “IAS Membership internationally was about 40,000. The event attendance internationally was about 30,000 on a decent event, and had gone as low as 20,000 – 25,000. The “Bodies in the Shop” figure (which is supposed to measure the number of people in orgs that week for service, including Div 6 services) was about 16,000 internationally. These figures are four years old. My own estimate of the number of Scientologists internationally, based on these and other figures I knew of at the Int Base, is under 40,000.”

According to an article by David Miscavige’s former #2, Marty Rathbun, “Since securing his position of power, the statistics of Scientology have steadily decreased in spite of Miscavige’s public proclamations to the contrary.”

In the recent 80-page Freedom Magazine put out by David Miscavige, they claimed “8,071 Scientology Churches, Missions and groups”

I wrote another post about my examination of this information, but I’ll repeat the information here as well.

I got curious as to where all these “Churches, Missions and groups” are.  You might have noticed that the Church no longer lists Org addresses in the back of the books. They used to list all Org and Mission addresses, but they stopped doing that. They just refer you to their website, with its nifty Scientology Org and Mission locator. You cannot find a complete org and mission list on the website, just this locator. So, in order to find out how many Orgs and Missions there are, you have to spend hours going through the locator, country by country.

Which I did.

Here’s my count: 140 Orgs, 342 Missions. I don’t vouch for its complete accuracy, but it’s pretty close. That’s a far cry from 8,071. Here’s what the breakdown looks like:


I went back and checked my copy of What is Scientology, from 1998, which dates from a time when they still published org and missions address lists. The count, from that list, is 143 Orgs, 230 Missions. So the number or Orgs is virtually the same. Sure, there have been a few new Orgs: Harlem,  CC Nashville. But there have also been Orgs that have quietly disappeared: CC Portland, Copenhagen Org, Puerto Rico (downgraded to a Mission). So no real expansion there.

Missions have apparently increased by 112.  Okay, fair enough, but nowhere near 8,000. And missions, as one reader pointed out, are nothing like they used to be. Missions used to have 25 or 30 staff or more, rivaling the size of Orgs. Today’s missions are likely to be a couple of guys in a house, open maybe a few nights a week.

The Freedom Magazine tells us: “In just the last five years, the Church has literally doubled in size, from 4,000 Churches, Missions and groups in 2004 to over 8,000 in 2009 in 165 nations, doubled since 2004.”

So it’s a bit, shall we say, misleading, to talk about an expansion of “Orgs, Missions and Groups.” The claimed expansion has been, other than 112 Missions added in the last 10 years, entirelygroups. Over 7,500 of them.  Well, a legitimate question is, where are they?

I spent some time on the internet looking for them. A search for “Scientology Group” and “Dianetics Group” didn’t find anything (although I found a lot of Freezone groups). I spent some time with Google Maps, searching for any addresses connected to Dianetics or Scientology. I only got Orgs and Missions. I searched for any blogs connected to Scientology groups. Well, I couldn’t find them. One would think that if there were 7,500 Dianetics or Scientology groups, they would actually show up somewhere.

If they exist.

The bottom line is, where is all this “expansion” that management talks about? Where are these millions of Scientologists and thousands of groups? Why can’t we see them? Why isn’t event attendance in the hundreds of thousands? Why aren’t orgs full of people?  Maybe you can’t see all that expansion because it doesn’t exist. And maybe, just maybe, behind the glitter and façade and brags, Scientology is actually getting smaller under current management.

So when it comes to reviewing the statistics of David Miscavige’s Brave New Scientology, don’t just accept the PR. Look, don’t listen. Examine, probe, fact-check.

So have another look at that Doubt Formula.

Maybe today’s Brave New Scientology is not a group you want to be part of.


I’m so sorry Jeremy.  Your life is being twisted by one of the ugliest of lies on this planet.  The only thing really growing in Scientology are those who are waking up to the lies, deception and massive pain that has been caused to thousands of families across the planet and are leaving in droves.

“It is you who choose your future, it is you who holds firmly to your goals or lets them slip. . . .

. . .“When all is said it is you who will be with yourself at the end.

“And it is you who will ask yourself, did I do right or did I do wrong?

“And the state you find yourself in will be the answer.” – LRH

“THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN CONTROL PEOPLE IS TO LIE TO THEM. You can write that down in your book in great big letters. The only way you can control anybody is to lie to them.” — – L. Ron Hubbard, “Off the Time Track,” lecture of June 1952, excerpted in JOURNAL OF SCIENTOLOGY issue 18-G, reprinted in TECHNICAL VOLUMES OF DIANETICS & SCIENTOLOGY, vol. 1, p. 418



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Love Always,

Your Mom,
Meshell Powers-Little


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