Archive for May, 2013

Jeremy, You Got Growing Up To Do

I just heard this song today and wanted to share it here.

This video really seems to say what I should do.


You Got Growing Up To Do

I’ve been down this road before
I walk out the door
Leave you on the floor
Sometimes you run and hide
Your foolish prides
What keeps me from giving you more

So the best thing
I can give to you
Is for me to go
Leave you alone
Cause you got growin’ up to do

Some day I’ll return when it’s time
For payment in kind
The church bells’ll chime
You’ll stand before me surrounded by lights
Dressed in white
You’ll throw flowers in the air
This night

But the best thing
I can give to you
Is for me to go
Leave you alone
You got growin’ up to do

Looks like the rain’s pouring down on me
It’s drowning me now
All I want is to come back home
This old corduroy coat
It’s not keeping me dry
But I can’t think of what else to try

That’s why the best thing
I can give to you
Is for me to go
Leave you alone
You got growin’ up to do

Now the best thing
I can give to you
Is for me to go
Leave you alone
You got growin’ up to do


Missing Jeremy Today

My Jeremy, I love you so much.

I heard this song today and it made me think of you.

Missing you so much today.



When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I’ve known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I’d go hungry, I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling down the avenue
No there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

Mother’s Day Came & Went

mothers-day-imageMy dear Jeremy Powers.  Amazing how my emotions swing when I think of you and your actions.  Yesterday was Mother’s Day.  I wonder if you thought of me.  I photo shopped out the “happy” part of “Happy Mother’s Day” on the photo here.  It wasn’t a “Happy” mother’s day for me.  It was a SAD Mother’s Day.  My other two beautiful children did beautiful things to make my day nice, but it was overshadowed by reality.

This is the 3rd Mother’s Day in a row now that I have thought all day about you being disconnected from me.  I try not to think of things that make me sad, and I quickly get my attention off it – but this day and my birthday are particularly hard days where the facts smack the hardest.

Part of me thinks if you’re so cruel and selfish that you’d disconnect from me for Sarah Coziarh because her Scientology religion demands that you do, then you are probably just as selfish that the thought of me on Mother’s Day did not even cross your mind!  That’s what breaks my heart, Jeremy.

How about Sarah’s mom?  Yep, but I am thinking “the greatest mom in the world” Cathy Crist (Sarah’s mom), probably got all sorts of attention.  How hypocritical.  The thought of it makes me ill.  It’s just completely hypocritical of both you and Sarah!!

I missed you today Jeremy.

I am thinking very seriously about billboards……yep.

Jeremy, I Miss You So Much

I’ve had you on my mind every day.  Every day I want to write to you, but I sometimes feel like there’s nothing new to be said except how I miss you.  I look at people a lot more these days hoping I might see you in a crowd.

There’s a lot of things I know about – and I can’t talk about.  It’s just massively sad that you honestly believe that you should shun me.  I know one day you’ll realize this and I am sad we will have lost all these years.

I love you.

Here’s a photo of you and me in 2002.


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